Running After You...

the fireworks...

2006-08-13T16:49:00.000+08:00

so after all the tok about going to view the fireworks and all.. i finally got it all edited.. only 3 nights worth.. basically team italy, team singapore and team new caledonia. the file might take awhile to load, coz it's pretty huge.. so just let it load first.. then sit back and enjoy the flash slide show.. yup.. that's all for now i guess..

Note: the file is 13mb in size.. so let it load first.. in the mean time go do something else.. u'll know when it starts coz it has music.. yup.. (",)

explosive...

2006-08-08T22:59:00.000+08:00

alright its been a good 2 months since i abandoned my blog. always wanted to update it, but no nice pics and no mood to write. anyway here i am. prelims are approaching real soon, and we got a 3 day national day break. well at least a study braek. shall not dwell on that.

well went down to squeeze with some 300,000 people today at marina bay, and yes, for the fireworks. today's was by team singapore. it was reali splendid. went down specially just to capture some pics. (i'll post them once i get them processed) my first time taking fireworks, so they are kinda lousy. nvm, that's not the point. rather, two seperate incidents today kept me wondering about things. about how inconsiderate people can be. how rude can they be. how irresponsible can they be. how nonsensical can they be. and finally how i think and realised that my temper is just like a firework. when u trigger it, it'll jsut explode! BOOM!

incident 1-
i was at this staircase right beside the marina sqaure foodcourt to catch the fireworks. couldn't get a seat at the foodcourt, so decided to venture over there. and guess wad? i was the first! thought how come nobody go, soon people started streaming in. and by 830 it was filled. had like hardly room to stand kinda thing. but i had a tripod and camera and i had the best spot, so people dint realli come near. hahaz. then there was this guy, probably in his 30s. (couldn't realli see well, sooo dark) guess wad he did. he happily took out a cigarette and lighted it. then i think my mum said it in a polite tone like, "excuse me, dont mind can u please dont smoke. there are alot of people here." given that those around him were like looking at him, hoping he'll stop. now guess wad he replied? "oh how i know the wind will blow there. if it just blows towards u, then just too bad." i tell u, that somehow flared me up, well at least inside of me, given i HATE smokers and ~~bloody hell~~ u dare say this.

thougths in me: come on la dude! there are tons of people all around u. KIDS TOO! if the wind doesn't blow here, it'll blow there too. and there's hardly enough room to stand properly, u still want to smoke. who u think u are. ~~Bloody Bastard.~~ at least have some common sense. hope u at least have a pea brain to think.

incident 2-
then nvm the smoker was a small little incident. i dint dwell in that, after all there was so much smoke from the fireworks that i guessed he had no time to smoke. then after the fireworks, went back down to the foodcourt to get a drink. had to wait for the crowd to clear frst then slowly make our way back. so given there were 5 of us, my parents and their 2 friends, we had a hard time looking for a place. finally got this table for 4 and had to squeeze in more, as the adjacent 4 person table was occupied. then nevermind. then later the 2 on the other table left, leaving the 5 of us on the table meant for 8. still having our drinks. this guy in his 30s i think or late 20s came up and asked quite politely: "excuse me. are u all just chit chatting? coz we have 6 of us, and its super crowded now and we can't find anyspace. can give the table up?"

given that we haven't finish our drinks, my mum just told him, "sorrie but we haven't finish and we had a hard time looking for the table too. there's some empty seats there too." and guess wad that guy (if u even consider him to be one that is..) did? he just gave a stare and buay shong look. then his friend asked him got table, he replied "SOME PEOPLE GOT NO MONEY TO GO CAFE AND HOG THE TABLES" he PURPOSELY said that loudly. "TOO POOR TO GO CAFE SO COME FOODCOURT HOG TABLES"

ok at this point in time i ask u, who will hear that be happie be with wad he said? so we were like heck care him, then just say things like how did ssuch rude people exist? then nvm, and guess wad he did next. he jolly well sat the table behind us, and PURPOSELY clear the table of the tray and left over dish and slammed it RIGHT INFRONT of my dad, on the table. like WTH!! then my mum's friend just turned and said, "young man, u want to place things can put nicely or not?" and he just STARED back at us. and just give us occasional stares after that.

thougths in me: he had 5 other friends with him. 2 ladies. NONE OF THEM bothered to apologise for his behaviour or say anything to him. WOAH! and i'm AMAZED that those ladies can TOLERATE such a ~~TYRANT~~. and u know something? he NEVER said a single please or wad so ever. just take it for granted that we MUST give the table up and like he OWNS it. if so, please show us prove of purchase we'll gladly go. and doesn't he know anything about respect? i wonder how he ever survived being like this. i was ~~DAMN PISSED~~ with him and i nearly like confronted him already. and i already planned out wad i wanted to say to him. *crude language ahead, please beware*

"hello? do u understand the meaning of respect? not a single please u want us to give in to u. and did u have to make sucha stupid remark? if we can't afford a cafe, so it simply means something. YOU CAN'T AFFORD A RESTAURANT! HA! and by slamming those trays infront of us simply showed us something. just a simple 4 words - 没有家教.. however, i seriously doubt u'll understand those 4 chinese words. u know why? coz i guess ur intellectual capacity that u showed us can't contain such ~~CHIM~~ words. oh and back to the point i was saying on respect. didn't anyone teach u to respect ur elders? and just in case u are wondering that by saying this to u i aren't showing u respect. u are ~~damn well~~ right. coz, u DO NOT deserve any at all. and lastly, a word of advice - watch ur back, coz with ur tongue, ANYTHING ~~can~~ happen to u.

-the end of my explosive temper. BOOM!

the shopping spree...

2006-06-04T18:31:00.000+08:00

just a random post on my shopping spree.. told u i had half a thousand worth of popular vouchers.. and so here is a pic of wad i managed to get with those vouchers.. and the list of them is here:

3 dk eyewitness travel books that my parents have been eyeing for a long long time (always don't buy coz they say very ex, so now they exploit my vouchers)
2 books (ok mine, was just curious over this 2 books, so instead of digging for them in the library, decided i should just get them)
60 pocket clear folder (once again, not mine, my dad's)
2 packets of 8 0.38 signo mixed colour pen set (not all for me once again, my group of friends keep bugging me for something, so here u are)
2 packets of 5 foolscap paper (don't ask me why i got so many, they were on offer and only came in a whole set of 10 pads -.-)
paper one printing paper (yes to print stuff for all u people that dont have a printer or printer without ink -.-)
5 highlighters (i don't use otehr colours than yellow, so as u can see 2 are mine the rest belong to someone else)
black permanent marker (my dad's, apparently to do disc labeling)
correction fluid (always so ex that's why never realli want to get a replacement, but now i get it (: )
pencil lead (yeah just replensihing my diminishing supply)
2 boxes of cheapo pens (i hate cheapo pens, so can't be mine)
dvd+r (have to burn my animes to clear space, so yeah , my fastest alternative)
3 black mounting boards (if u were wondering if i made the picture's background black, its the mounting boards. need it for SYPA)

alright if u think that cost me half a thousand bucks, u are wrong. it totaled to a mere $286. well given that the kiasu me, i applied for popular card the day i got the vouchers and got this 20% off voucher. and so after discount it was $238.56. and well i was left with $225 worth of vouchers after giving away one, and used the rest on something else, and 150 bucks worth yet to be collected. so in the end had to fork out $13.55 cash, well at least my dad did. and he was saying woah, $13 for so many things. lolx. that's my dad for u. and now for the long receipt (not to mention i naturally held up the entire queue at the counter)

circle of life...

2006-05-27T21:03:00.000+08:00

Presenting to one and all...

Circle of Life - Light, Heat, Energy

Singapore Youth Science Festival Photo Competition 2nd Placing...

yup you just saw it. a long recognition for my works. the one i've always longed for. well it may not be much, just a very small photo comp, but it's still better than nothing. this past week has realli realli been eventful. on the average i got 1 thing per day to add into my portfolio (school one), something other than report cards and wad not.

well i have absolutely no idea how did this happen, but i got the school based science works com 2nd prize, this sysf 2nd prize. and not only that. on top of that, ig ot 3 more consolation prizes for the sysf one -.- so its like 10 winning entries (top 3 and 7 conso) 4 of them are mine. and to think i submitted 5. 4 out of 5 won something.. hmmmmmm.. O.o

oh well besides those certs and trophy, guess wad i landed myself with?!? half a thousand dollars!! yes no doubt.. half a k of cold hard.. popular vouchers -___- yes go on and ask me wad i am going to do with $510 worth of them. i can practically buy the whole disney cuites soft toy collection, the top 10 charts of cd-rama, a year's supply of foolscap and probably still have enough left to get tons of stationery.. yes yes tell me about being happi about winning it, i am, i realli am. but please.. be practical? half a thousand dollars worth of popular vouchers is just ridiculous. at least give me taka i wont mine so much.. oh well..

hmm and i had to receive the 2nd prize from the minister of manpower worrr.. he was the guest of honour for the sysf opening ceremony.. i was taking pics during that event lor.. nearing my turn had to put down my camera go up shake hand get prize.. and go back down and continue shooting.. lolx.. then later at the mini exhibition, the principal picked me out from the grp of photographers to explain my nel shot to the minister, coz they couldn't figure out where i took it.. then later group shot.. the minister claims that my shots will be artistic. O.o shall take that as a compliment. (:

oh my dardar won 3rd for the school based one too! so proud of u.. together we took 100 dollars worth of popular vouchers from the school.. lolx.. used them to get stuff for photog in the end. and well before i tok further about my sweet darling dardar, would like to add in something else too. i'll be receiving college day distinguish service award.. hmm to think the principal actually allowed me to get sucha thing for creating so much trouble.. lolx.. speaking of which she teased me for being rich.. -.- apparently she dint know they are all popular vouchers.. and yes i'm very whinny about that..

anyway realli had a super fun time with dardar this couple of days. catched over the hedge. very very funni show. to those that watched, i bet u people dint finish watching the credits. u people missed out one very funni ending clip. the whole cinema only left 2 of us and the gv guy cleaning the place when it was showned. dont know why u people dont like to stay for the credits. missing out on nice things.. lolx..

today was ajc seminar. was there presenting on sports photography. shall not mention thanks to who -.- guess i was quite bad at presenting.. i have absolutely no idea why i always have so last minute stage frights and being all so tensed up and being so nervous and all. nuts.. arghhhh.. maybe should go SMU and train.. lolx.. finally hols are here. finally to get a well deserved rest.. i'm dying from exhaustion already.. alright take care all.. God bless.. (",)

a continuation...

2006-05-04T17:39:00.000+08:00

it's been nearly 2 weeks since i did say haloz to my dear blog, well it's been quite a hectic and tiring week for me i got to say. the pile of work to be done and the mountain of notes to be read and studied seems to create a new high record each day. it's like sometimes i dont even know why i'm so tired or so stressed about. but i guess for the coming weeks and months to come, the pressure will continue to pile up.. more and more.. stronger and stronger.. hope i'm able to sustain through it. gosh~

napfa is coming. suddenly feel so stressed over it. after months and months of procastinating, i finally balme myself for not training. tuesday saw the gals did 5 stations, its like all can at least qualify for silver, and think there are many golds among them too. and me? doubt i can even pass. dont realli want to pull the class standard down though. since the school is like giving out an award to the "fitest class", and mind you, its cash.. yes cash!! so naturally my class is looking forward to it, but idiots like me will probably pull the standard down.. need 4 pull ups to get a silver but i'm sort of stuck at 3. (that's if the teacher even count them as pull ups) been training hard, but like 1 week before? wad's the use.. sian.. now my muscles are aching like crap.. but i decided to continue. must ENDURE~~~

this week i marked a very memorable day. it may sound stupid to nearly almost everybody, but its one month since that special day. one month on... i got to admit i realli enjoy every single moment of it, and u're realli making me feel more for u each time. (: i got a figaro cat? dont exactly know how to spell it, but its realli a very cute soft toy. and i had essays to read too! lolx. will post a pic of the cat some time later when i feel like it =p hope there'll be many more such happy occasions to come.. and come.. and come..

that pic is just a pic of changi boardwalk i went on monday with my parents. its a nice palce, wanted to capture the sunrise but was late. so sad right. and wad's worst, it was low tide -.- so i still shoot anyway, out of 50+ shots, this is my best and after much post processing here it is. dint exactly got any inspiration to name it, btu named it "still" anyway. it gives a very calm feeling. everything lying there motionless, and only the small waves washing up.. and goes out.. and washes up.. it realli is very soothing.. so yup.. till the next time.. (",)

bright ideas...

2006-04-18T20:55:00.000+08:00

need i say more? it's the tok of the town.. it's like in the limelight now.. don't bother to ask why.. guess we all know the answer.. hmm well i think i got my point across. the cohort managed to voice out their frustrations and concerns.. and now its up to how the college will be handling it.. and how well it will go.. so till then, all i can say is get on with life.. let this be a lesson learnt and close the chapter.. move on.. that's wad..

oh well just want to thank those that have been so supportive of me.. being there for me and encouraging me.. *u know who u are* i'm truely appreciative of wad u people have done.. though sometimes i may not respond.. but realli, i feel it.. and would like to especially thank someone.. u've been spending so much time and effort, even more than i do. i'm realli touched.. it's just past 2 weeks and u already mean so much to me.. and i'm sure we'll be able to overcome wad others think about us.. let's prove them wrong~~

anyway the picture.. if u are wondering.. it is in nowhere drawn.. its a picture taken with the candle infront.. in a super dark room.. and me using a led light waving it behind the candle literally drawing the lightbulb out with light trails.. with a super long shutter of course.. it took me nearly an hour to get this nicest shot. gave up after that.. lolx..

too fast, too furious...

2006-04-15T22:26:00.000+08:00

it's been a fast week. it passed by so fast that i could hardly breathe. got to say that lots of nice things happened this week and i shall just briefly touch on each. well, there are also some unhappy things that happened too. something that made me do something that i have never done before... starting a petition...

and yes i started an online petition. its for a good cause. got back our project work results on thursday. we were thinking that we did very well. but no. teachers were telling their classes that only 8 lucky souls managed to secure a band 1 and as high as 80% getting a miserable band 3. well it doesn't sound like much, but wait till u compare to other jcs. some other jcs (i shall not name them) have results liek 80-90% securing band 1 or 2.. 30 unlucky peeps getting a band 3.. and mind u, i'm not quoting unbased statistics. and wad's more, these aren't stats from the top jcs. they are from some jcs much comparable with sajc.

i got to say that i feel very unjust and disappointed in the overall results of the school. its not that i aren't happi with my band 2, but i realli feel very sad and unfair for the rest of the corhort. after putting in soooo much effort, time and sleepless nights, all they get is a band 3. which is like the bare minimum if u handed in everything required? it realli makes me and others wonder wad exactly went wrong. is it that sa has 600 students that dont take pw seriously or is it that something went wrong in how we went about doing pw. to me it most probably is the latter. this is my basis and rationale for starting the petition.

i'm trying to suggest to the college to do a review into their pw system. the approach they take into guiding us for pw. its not that i want them to change our grades or wad, coz they can't. but to rather help the current j1s that are doing their pw before it is too late once again. i feel that's something i should do to help them. to brng awareness to the college that there are hundreds of us that do care for them and the college as well. so after so much, here is the petiton...

SAJC Project Work Petition

please do go and take a look and sign it.. most importantly, spread it to all saints. i think that's the least u can do. give ur honest feedback and views to the college, so hopefully they will take them into consideration and improve. thanks.

alright, petition aside. see the pic? its taken in the nel tunnel. lolx. i find it the nicest of all i took that very morning. was standing right at the back of the train figuring out a way to take a good pic of it. and finally one shot out of the many i took turned out fine. well it was named too fast, too furious coz it gave a sense of fast motion. all the lights zooming in and all. quite nice i guess. well no idea why i put that pic up here, but guess it kinda shows the mood i am in now over the pw thingy.

hmmm this week i also welcome in a new lens to my entire camera collection. a canon ef 85mm f/1.8 usm. its one good lens that allows me to do the blurry effect of the parts of the pic that i dont need to be in focus. it also allows me to shoot at real light conditions. good for shooting school events in the cc. hahaz. oh well, can't wait to use it for soccer shoot on monday.

and hmm, its going to be 2 weeks on soon. how time flies. got to spend some time and caught ice age 2 on thursday. its realli a very nice movie, and the company made it perfect. the movie was realli funni, and the characters were so cute. we were like laughing throughout the movie and exclaiming "omg! that one so cuteeeee" lolx.. realli enjoyed it.. not to mention after that, we passed the arcarde and were like pathetic kids only able to look through the glass, coz we were in uni. oh well. and ohhhhhh.. neoprints were so fun.. hhaz.. falling in luv with it.. *the person taking with makes a difference ok.. lolx.. alright till the next time, acknowledge the petition and sign it. ha.

the smell of summer...

2006-04-07T16:50:00.000+08:00

today is 7-4-06, friday. that means it has been a good old 2 weeks since i last ever updated. and that means i got a good whole 2 weeks to summarise in this small little tiny space. and that means i'm not going to tok about everything. and that means i'm only going to tok about somethings that i deem as more important. hmmm.. i wonder wad.. and as the saying goes.. i'll leave the best for the last.. (",)

hmm first for some sad things.. block test over.. means block test results back.. means? i'm going to die. or rather i died. after looking at all the scripts and listening to the explanation of the teachers, i realised that the papers aren't that difficult after all.. they weren't exactly killer papers. this can only mean one thing, i'm lousy. arGh! oh well, looks like i got plenty of catching up to do and plenty of revision to be done and lots of socks to pull up. arHhhhhhhh.. ok maybe some subs i did a little better than i thought i will, nevertheless i'm still feeling quite disappointed. oh well, wad's over is over, know my mistakes and move on, shall not dwell too much in the past...

do u notice how the flowers in the pic look like faces? happy faces to be exact. they seem to be like smiling and rejoicing. it seems like summer has just arrived and the flowers just started to bloom. its so pretty and beautiful. well maybe i know why they are jejoicing so. and that's why they seem to be popping up above the rest to take a peek! let's test u if u know why they are so..

MCQ Test. You are to answer 1 question only. You can only choose 1 of the options only. Total: 1 mark. Good luck and all the best, you have 30 seconds and your time starts now.

Q1. What does 02-04-06 represent?
(a) A mathematical number pattern
(b) Even Numbers
(c) A Date
(d) None of the above

Answer: (d) None of the above.

Wanna know why? Let me tell u.. 02-04-06 isn't just a number pattern, neither is it just yet another day nor just mere even numbers. It's a day that has much more meaning than that. It's a start of something great.. The day a dream was fulfilled.. The day a brand new chapter in a brand new story was started.. It marks the day him and her got together.. Where new dreams will be fulfilled together.. Where Sweet memories will be made togther.. Nobody else but just you and me.. *huGz*

silver lining...

2006-03-23T17:53:00.000+08:00

well finally the block tests are over. oh well. don't even know its a relieve or a start of a whole new nightmare. and yes block test was a nightmare. this entire block test i think i'm just like going to die. going to be sooooooooo sad. the papers are like crazy. ok or maybe i should just blame myself for not putting enough hardwork. studying like 10 days before. wad was i thinking about. looks like when the results are back, i'll just get shocked and just like die. hope it'll serve as a wake up call. wake up malcolm... wakeeeeee uppppppppppppppppppp...

alright to summarise the whole block test in a few sentence:
_general paper - it was a tougher paper, but that's no excuse. i should realli improve my language power
_math - confirm at least 40% of the marks have been lost. and more is yet to come...
_chem - organic chem.. organic chem.. it's the downfall of chemistry to me...
_econs - great joke.. the biggest joke ever.. not reading instructions is going to make me fail...
_bio - its just a rush against time and sad to say i lost.. blanking out and panickin wa all i needed..

and let's say i'm not looking forward to school next week or the week after.. not at all.. will be having a long long weekend.. wonder how i'm going to spend it. i'm just tired. maybe i should just sleep my entire weekends away. sleep is all i want to do. sleep and never wake up..

argh. alright, there's a reason why this post is named silver lining just like the picture (thanks to the person that suggested it). "every cloud has a silver lining" at this moment i'm just looking towards and hoping that it may not be that bad after all. *hopes* well just like in the photo, though it gives a very desolated feel, with all the dead leaves and all, it's just a sad feel. but the light rays brings in a sense of glimmer of hope. and i realli hope something like that will happen for my block test. we shall see... till then...

the move...

2006-03-14T19:24:00.000+08:00

Ladies and Gentlemen...

Presenting to you...

One of Commonwealth Photo Competition 2006
Top 50 Photos...

The Move

hmmm people, no it isn't fake. u can check it out at the Commonwealth Photo Competition Web. sad to say there isn't any prize or anything, but just a picture in that photo gallery. argh. nevertheless, i still think its the first step in getting recognition for my effort and sheer determination in creating my own world of Photology. Hahaz..

alright would like to thank some people for giving me this oppotunity to gain this encouragement:
-God for giving me favour and the annointing for photography..
-some principal that announced this competition..
-my favourite people for encouraging me to join..
-sajc dance for having to perform at danceworks..
-amelia (the one in the pic) for dancing so gracefully..
-ying li & friend for smuggling me in to the danceworks to take pics and got scolded by security..
-heon for being so encouraging and trying to help me find a place too..
-karen for telling me this picture is nice and asking me to send it in..
-to all those whom they think they should be thanked..
-my sigma lens that has been condemned by me since don't know when for being lousy..

i raelli am very happi couldn't believe it at first. coz effectively when i saw this picture, it dint quite appeal to me.. lolx. the framing wasn't as good.. dint realli tell much of a story.. was just yet another normal pic to me.. and plus if it's blown to the actual size its kind of a blurred.. so yeah.. but guess i should realli thank kaka, if not for u, i wouldn't have sent it in.. (",)

and alright the next part will be dedicated to my dearest jie jie.. *u know who u are* ok firstly let me apologise once again for failing to come up with my surprise u with a cake plan -.-" those stupid people were just simply early to grab seats at the cafe.. -____- but anyway, thanks for the treat (even though part of it was my own $$$) so the 9 ice cream cones debt has been erased.. lolx.. hmm and being the nice me like i've always been to u.. i decided to put a pic of u on ur bdae..

happi birthday to you...
happi birthday to yOu...
happi birthday to jIE-jiE...
happi birthday to yOU...

may you stay childish.. pretty.. and always loving and nice to your nice *no-so*little didi!!

a visit too many...

2006-02-26T21:55:00.000+08:00

it's been a long long week. so many things to do. so many things to say. alot of funny things happening around in school. hahaz. shall not bother to elaborate since all of u probably have already heard it during assmebly. lolx. anyway this weekends has been pretty exciting i guess. a sudden interest in shooting hit me. went shooting on both days, am so tired now. argh. *well shooting as in photo taking, not air rifle or live firing or wad not...

a visit number 1-
badminton @ clementi sports complex. my gosh. it has since been like at least a year ever since i last touched that badminton racket of mine. dont know why i stupidly agreed to go play badminton, when practically i'm the one like tagging along without knowing anyone there except for the one that brought me there. weird. gosh 2hrs of it and my muscles are aching even today, gosh it realli is a sign that i need to exercise more. nevertheless it was nice playing, especially getting to beat someone over and over again. hehex (",)

a visit number 2-
danceworks @ marina square. well after badminton, i rushed like a mad dog home and out again just to take dance works. lolx. i barely made it in time, and gosh i was shocked by the crowd (even though i expected it since there were so many schools taking part). i was like panicking for a place to be at to shoot, but realised that the stage was simply too far away, and my lousy lens will never be able to take it. but thank God, ying li and company managed to find a way to smuggle me in. (sorri got u people reprimanded by the security. hehex) anyway it was worth it. sajc dancers just never fails to amaze. it was truely a tremendous performance. kinda sad that u people only got 3rd, but nevertheless congrats of making it into the finals! all the way! *anyway, pictures can be viewed at the new Photology - Alpha link on the left. sad to say its only below average pictures that i took. lousy lens and i mean it.

a visit number 3-
clubsnap outing @ chinese gardens. well for the first time i joined this group of pro shooters on an outing to just shoot. was fun, especially when the main thing was to go infrared! its way cool ok. capturing the infrared spectrum human eyes can see, simply gives a totally whole new feeling to the picture. real cool. went there from like morning to afternoon, shared some tips and all and got to shoot at some place i haven't quite been for at least 10+ years. lolx. kind of nice. hope to go back there sometime again. (and yes U better mean it. i still want those "ghost" shots!!) lolx. the shot above is just one shot that sorta appealed of its spooky feel. lolx. anyway i'm all so tired from all the walking. muscles aching like dont know wad. argh.

how quick my weekends are burnt. that's how i used all the freedom i had coz my parents are out of town. great. lolx. jsut realised there is one whole mountain of things to do, but i can't care less. lolx. so tiredddd... going to sleep pretty soon. going to die once again in school this week. argh. 3 more weeks till block test. die die dieeeeee... need to start coming up with a block test help package again. -______-

valentines...

2006-02-14T17:44:00.000+08:00

need i say more? it's valentines day. hahaz. well i guess it was realli more than just another school day. seeing everybody carrying extra bags... flowers... ballons.. the mood is simply so nice la. its like u hear screaming here and there.. people hugging each other and all. suddenly gives u the very warm feeling that we dont see normally. lolx. other than some bdae celebrations. hahaz.

well its sure fun surprising each other with wad we got for each other. photos, chocolate, sweets and home made stuff. so nice la. but then there's this especially unique one.. in a green foil package. brand named durex. and says i quality latex condom -.-" attached was a note...

on this special day when u show ur love to ur loved ones,
USE PROTECTION...

u know who u are. lolx. thanks anyway. realli amazed at al the creativity showed by everyone. and how some people can be so sweet, when they aren't usually so. hehheex. go guess who.

got to say today is realli one of th most fun day in school. realli truely unique and special. think i ate too much chocolates. went with one big box. ended up with also nearly one big box. onyl different type of chocolate. lolx. hmm got to say so many people targeted my guylian dark chocolates. but got to admit its nice! hahaz.

anyway as u can see, the collage above is just a mix of pictures that's all. most of the pics contributed by bernie. thanks (: the name is also contributed by her sometime ago. so yeah. sorri to those who appeared only twice or so, can't realli find pics of u people. anyway it may be quite a huge difference from the one i developed. just that i added the heart on only. only managed to figure out how to do it last night. so yeah. sorri bout that. finally, to all my friends out there, happy valentines day. hahaz. (",)

a post cny reflection...

2006-02-06T18:14:00.000+08:00

well before i know it, its been one week since the start of lunar new year. how quick can that get la. it just goes away in a snap of the fingers. well it sure is tiring this year. so many visitations to make. well not exactly visitations, coz all i see are the same people over and over again, just at a different place each time. hahaz. so its just busy busy busy. but other than that, ang pow collection still quite ok i guess. oh well..

anyway had a wonderful gathering or rather reunion dinner at ka wing's place ytd. it was realli fun, but then just abit too short. time realli flies when u are having fun uh. was like playing mahjong la. haven't touched since dont know when. alittle rusty. just as we are getting the hang of it once again, dinner time. -.-" well steamboat was for dinner. but before that we had yusheng. hahaz. so funni la. got to say its my first time lao-ing with my friends. then say all the auspicious and lucky stuff. so funni. then got like.. monday bio test A ah.. tuesday chem test A ah.. wednesday math test A ah.. (and yes that's how many tests i have in a short short week -.-) then even had things like 快高张大 (aimed at specific people but just guess they dint raelli bother). the picture above is one pic during the "lao-ing". go guess why i name it improvisation. go tag on the tagboard and u might get urself a surprise if u guess it correctly!

so had like 13 people sitting all around the table eating steamboat and all. gives sucha warm family feeling.. awwwww.. anyway eat and eat, but gals realli eat realli little. this dont eatm that dont eat. hmmm.. did i mentioned hh,kw and me had to like try and salvage the remains in the pot to clear all the food.. -.-"

then after that was quite late liao lor then had a round of mass blackjack. every round switch banker. the most hilarious thing is that we dint ahve coins, so ended up recording all the debts on a foolscape paper like some soccer bookie siah. and now still must go calculate who owe who. ha

today is a start of a fresh yet boring and dreaded week. had to wake up at 4am to study bio test. sorri la, played the entire weekends, thats' why. slept like dont know how long in school also. leture, tutorials and all. ZZZzzzz.. finally bio test over, and now for chem test tmr la. crazy. yet to touch anything. die. ok off to study now. take care people...

a lunar new year greeting...

2006-01-28T17:36:00.000+08:00

well first of all let me wish all you people, family and friends, a very happy lunar new year. it kind of doesn't feel so to me, but oh well. think recently i'm too numb with work to feel any festive season. its like so funny that i get so busy with work that is like a rest day or a short break for me. not a festive season. have 3 tests for the 3 school days right after cny, so let's not tok about celebrating at the moment. it's stupid. i know.

oh well, ytd was supposedly some cny celebrations in school. i mean wad celebrations is there when u got lessons right till 11+? crazy. only then we get some funni carnival and concert. they said its going to end at 2.15pm. yeah right. it kinda like dragged till 3.30pm? when out normal friday end like 12.45? wad nonsense la. and other colleges dismissed like before our celebrations started in any way? wadeva la. as usual i'll just go take pictures. snap snap snap. nothing realli, other than the dances and gymnas performances, which are like WoAH!

anyway it was realli funni seeing how people escape and run out from the fence. see all of them scaling the fence and running away is simply hilarious. wanted to. but the call of duty.. argh. wanted to go back to victoria at first, but seems like only 2 or 3 went back. then had to turn down a lunch date just bcoz my celeb ends soooo late. damn it -.-"

anyway today just like went to grandma's for lunch. "reunion lunch" hahaz. and after that went down to chinatown to snap snap snap again. but nothing realli nice to snap. or maybe i wasn't paying attention. and i'm not the type of person that likes crowds or like to snap people. prefer still objects and landscapes. that's just one pic above of those layered bamboo shoots. somewad it's the nicest shot for today. so oh well. a random pic. hope the next few days will be better and i can roll in big money.. hahaz.. kidding... till then...

恭祝大家
恭喜发天财
万事如主意
新年蒙恩

a long way to go...

2006-01-19T21:47:00.000+08:00

- a long way to go - mrt head office - 19/1/06 -

its been a very hectic week i got to say. all the tutorials and other stuff to complete is completely wearing me down. all i want to do is to sleep sleep and sleep now. time flies past simply so fast and i simply can't believe chinese new year is coming up like next week? omg. tons of things undone for cny. yet to get new specs, haircut, clear my room etc. this sux. lolx. looks like i should set one day and get all this done. maybe this weekend bah. hahaz.

anyway today my class took part in chapel. or rather a few of them had the oppotunity to lead in chapel worship. how nice. all i contributed was some powerpoint, which isn't only me that did it. ying li if u are reading this, thanks alot for helping me key in the lyrics. appreciate so much. (: and to the rest, worship this morning was great! praise the Lord!

tomorrow is workshadowing tea session already. and here i am still taking pictures off the net to put them on the board. this is so crappy man. never had i did such last minute projects before. hahaz. wanted to go take pics today, but just couldn't get through. so in the end i couldn't. oh well. just got to make do with wad i can get now then.

weekends are coming so near. can't wait for it to come. just rememebred did i mention that 52 signed up for photog last week and only like 25 turned up this wednesday for the orientation thing? lolx. it realli exceeded my expectations already. thought only say at most 20 will come. dint know people had to much passion and interest in sucha "boring" cca. next wed, x-country. so sian. can't run. so yeah back to taking pics. hope it'll turn out good. lolx. it has been qutie sometime since i last took such sporting events. shall go experiment. hahaz

anyway its like 10pm now. still got bio tutorial undone.and i simply dread doing it. argh. help me. i'm getting all so lazy now a days. and its only 19 days into the year. gosh. it indeed is a long walk.

*to all those well wishes on my tag. thanks alot (: i'm ok now. jsut some mood swings the last time round. lolx.

stuck within a circle...

2006-01-10T13:34:00.000+08:00

- spirals - sajc - 5/01/06 -

first week of the year has nothing bus turned into a routine. just like a circle going round and round and round, over and over again. can't get out of it. its like school, home, sleep. no life at all. and its only the first week of school moving on to the second. and its kind of a dread already. lectures after lectures.. tutorials after tutorials.. with days having every single lesson including pe, it just seems like a studen'ts life is much worst then a working adult. they work 9 to 5, we study 7.30 to 5+. tok about students needind 8hrs of sleep each day for out minds to develop properly. nuts.

anyway its kind of refreshing to see new people in school. the j1s that is. seeing them having orientation and playing all kind of games just makes me feel like it was only ytd that i entered jc. seems so near yet so far. guess life just has to move on. doing photog duties going around taking pics of them during orientation and finale just brings back much memories..

hmm had class bbq at mrs wong's place last night. was kind of a nice. except for the slight rain at first. it was kinda nice for the first time that the class actually come all together for sucha thing. and even had ms carol wong and ms linda tan as well. just made it more lively i guess. and oh wanted to throw ronald into the pool but was stopped. damn -.-" lolx. plan foiled. dint realli eat much, but the company was just enough i guess. hahaz.

something got into me last night. made me think alot. and realli alot. i lost control of myself. stupid thoughts and all went through me. somethings seemed so meaningless to me at that time. is it at times i've been too nice that everybody has taken me much for granted? wad is it that i do all these things for people, is it realli out of being kind or is it something else? i realli question myself. i can't seem to know why suddenly u r so near to me but yet seems that i have already lost it and u r just a great distance away from me. this silence seems so hard for me to break. is it that i'm realli that sensitive to not want to "hurt" you or is it that there's something holding me back. i feel something is just realli holding me back and i'm struggling with that. this thought just came to me... i hate myself for liking you.

new year greetings...

2005-12-31T18:19:00.000+08:00

wishing all a very blessed and wonderful year ahead...

let's all enjoy 2006 together!!

random...

2005-12-28T22:26:00.000+08:00

- stairway - sajc @ sav - 28/12/05 -

just like this picture, the following post is as hard as climbing up that flight of stairs... oh no... got to give speical mention and thanks to heon for ~~sabo-ing~~, i mean introducing me sucha wonderful game... and the next few lines will say it all...

rules of the game:
1. post 5 weird/random things about yourself.
2. at the end, list the names of 5 people whom you want next to do this, and leave a comment "YOU ARE TAGGED!" in their blog and tell them to read your blog for rules.

1. i never take chilly for like 17 years of my life other than mac's chilly sauce, but i suddenly just so happen to fall in love with them and can't stop having them in my meals... other than cut chilly that is.. ewwww....
2. i have 3 pink pens and pencil in my pencil case... oh did i mention orange and purple too?
3. i don't like oily stuff... including fried stuff... even fries actually... gives me the shivers...
4. i fall in love too easily.. and so says some people...
5. touching stories/movies/tv shows can bring me to tears... sniffs*

the luckiest people ever:
1. karen
2. ka shing
3. bao hui
4. hui ling
5. sioks

*disclaimer: i just had to follow on with it.. dont kill me..

festive greetings...

2005-12-24T23:54:00.000+08:00

just wishing all u people out there... family.. friends..

a very God Blessed Christmas..

and a wonderful 2006 ahead!!

remember.. Jesus' the reason why we celebrate Christmas!!

the trip...

2005-12-16T06:04:00.000+08:00

- las vegas collage - nevada, usa - 1/12/05 - 15/12/05 -

after disappearing for 2 weeks, i'm finally back. to those wondering where i was and was thinking if i died after not hearing from me or not seeing me online at all, sad to say u r wrong. sorri to waste ur plans for a party to celebrate it. lolx. ok anyway was in the states for the past 2 weeks. and here is the long story...

on 1st dec, the alarm rang at 3am. yes 3am. had to get myself ready and headed for the airport, coz the dumb flight is at 6am. argh. got to say i've never seen changi airport so quiet before. only a few flights out that early. was on northwest airlines heading for los angeles. the entire plane ride took roughly 21hrs with a transit at tokyo. omg its such a torture ok. just being in the plane not being able to do much. just sit there watch some movies and sleep and wake up and stone. that's how 21hrs past. finally i'm in la. it was like some 7am there. coz there's a -16hrs difference with singapore time. the jetlag was seriously bad. wanting to sleep in the day and waking up in the middle of the night. was like argh...

was at anaheim for the first 2 days, south of la itself. this place made famous by disneyland of course. hahaz. naturally i just had to spend a day in that wonderful and happy place. it was just nice the 50th anniversary of disneyland. 1955-2005. had some grand deco all over the place. and its simply huge i tell u. so many rides. so many people. so many things to see. realli was a fantasy land. just refreshes my memories of disneyworld i went 12 years back. its a totally new experience. thank God there wasn't much queues and most rides cleared realli quickly. lolx. guess there's just this kid in everyone regardless they are 3 or 83. (u people aren't going to call me childish) and i managed to catch one of the parades that is simply awesome. all the disney characters made alive. and yes the life size mickey and minnie and so on. lolx. it was, however, a pity that i missed the fireworks due to the rain. argh. wasted.

and so for the next entire week was at carlsbad, a town by the pacific coast of carlifornia in between la and san diego. there i embarked on a coastal journey everyday. visiting those magnificent beaches and piers. its realli very soothing and just a break from usual routine. the mighty works of God is truely awesome. just go check out the picture collection at the side and u'll know. i just uploaded like 145 pics out of 2631 pics i took. lolx. yup for u people to enjoy.

and for the last 4 days of my journey, headed to las vegas. the world famous gambling city. lolx. with temperatures like ranging from 2-20deg. freezing at times and realli hot under the scrouching sun. couldn't exactly go to each and every single major attractions there, coz simply there are too many to do so. hotels with different themes ranging from new york to egypt to paris to venice. wonder if the next is great wall of china. lolx. and all before i know it. 2 weeks past. and here i am back in singapore after a horrible 29hrs of plane rides and transitting. if u are wondering, its only 4am now. i'm still suffering from jetlag and can't realli go to sleep. argh.

*i still think a picture speaks a thousand words. go enjoy them. click the personal pics album link at the side.

tribute to my favourite people...

2005-11-28T09:14:00.000+08:00

- bdae collage - cine - 27/11/05 -

this post will be dedicated to those that have made this day such a memorable one. one that will stay in my memory for days to come.. it all started out from a "simple" meet up for lunch at somerset. and yes, sorri to miang and zhu han for being late. my deepest apologies. then soon headed down to cine to meet kw and val. went pastamania for lunch. had some country oven baked pasta, which is quite nice. though i think it would have been better if it was more chessy. lolx.

toking about cheese. u can't believe it. 6 people (bernie came soon later) used 2 containers of cheese. -.- that's how much we ate. the one on the table for us wasn't enough. had to cope the one from the other table. the amount we took was horrible. it could nearly fill up one whole container already. hmmm spent some time there just toking a little. then soon decided to move to some place to just sit and tok. then they suggested this sofa area at the 7th floor i think. outside the theatres. i dint know there was one though. hahaz. this shows how deprived i am. lolx.

oh then we were toking a little. then bernie and miang went to buy drinks. then soon after val and zh disappeared saying they need go toilet. lolx. then left kw and me there toking about fm(football manager 06). just tok lor then dint realised it was so long that we tok. then i think after quite some time val and zh came back. i dint even suspect anything la. then soon after following behind was miang and bernie carrying a bdae cake up the escalator. it realli caught me by surprise. no kidding, but i realli dint suspect anything. that's how blur i am. and oh it was this nydc goldmine cheesecake. it was absolutely heavenly la. cheesecake with chocolate chunks added, topped with fudge and oreo crust!! the best cake i've ever eaten.

then suddenly zh pop out this present from her bag. and once again wasn't expecting it. coz they were saying present only after i come back from holiday. lolx. so i took it for real. lolx. to u guys that was thinking why i opened it so delicately, coz i was planning to reuse the wrapper for christmas... hehehx.. juz joking (:

anyway a very big bear hug and thank you to miang, bernie, zh, val, kw.. for making this possible. and also to ying li, heon, hui ling, yvonne, chai fern, nathaniel, steve for ur well wished. and oh oh.. miang and xin le for that bear clip. its so cute. hahaz. *has already dominated a place on my pen holder on my desk* lolx. once again thanks to all u people and sorri if i left ur name out.. (:

ma-ia-hee...

2005-11-22T18:04:00.000+08:00

- tags - 22/11/05 -

hmmm well after some time i'm finally back here. this day are just pure pure tiring. just take a look at my pic above. it shows u where i've been and will be this entire week. first was doing all these stupid hair product surveys for this research company. those u knock from door to door. one complete survey get $10 kind. then managed to pull hwee hou, ka wing, valerie along. lolx. thought it was quite an easy job at first. but we were wrong when the briefing started for the survey itself. they went through question by question. every single question and option. and there were 63 pages. yup sixty-three. and font size 12 with every page filles. u complete that, u get $10. -.-"

first day went to that bedok reservoir road area we were given. hahahz. one big joke. 10 hrs in one day and i only got one... yup no joke.. ONE!! like wth. was so freaking demoralised la can. like training for vertical marathon like that. climb up.. climb down.. climb up.. climb down.. knocking every single door we think have. and like in 3 days only did a pathethic 15 to meet the quota. went help kw and val with theirs also. those landed property was crazy. walk so much. dogs here and there. nuts. nevermind finally ended in. thought got money. but no.. only next month 28th then can get. wth -.-"

nvm. back to now. currently attached to CPF as u can see. there on work shadowing. today so slack. lolx. went there to see how they train those customer relations officers. or rather those working at the counters or call centers. then realised. they classroom training effectively 44 days. but takes nearly 1 year to be fully trained. like woah! then just sit and listen and ask things and stuff lor. will do another entry another day. lolx. 2 hrs lunch break. that's the best. hahaz.

anyway for all u tired souls out there. or rather play too much liao that's why tired. a nice flash animation below for u people. found it somewhere on the web. made famous by the chicken little ad in the movies. the one ask u switch off phone de. so have fun people. lolx. till the next time..

- thanks decoding galvin n charlize -

the story of a plant...

2005-11-15T21:31:00.000+08:00

- lines - botanical gardens - 12/11/2005 -

look at that pic. wad can u tell from it? a leave that is starting to photosynthesize got the sunlight is beginning to shine on it? or is it darkness is soon going to overwhelm it? to me now, its the latter. why is it that when u see a glamour of hope, that light that u've longed for so long and suddenly, it seems as if it's going to disappear or rather disappearing. it no longer thought wad it will be...

the story of a plant. it was a plant. a big plant. it has leaves that can cover a human. big enough to shelter u from the rain. it was strong enough to withstand the rain and storm to keep u dry. it may be gigantic, always there for u. but it was lonely. all alone in a big field. never was appreciated. it sees u walking along the pavement everyday. but u never did give it a glimpse. when u were down, u would sit to the bench next infront of the plant. straightening out ur thoughts. unknowingly, its leaves covered and sheltered u from the sun that was glaring right at u. and everyday it just looks at u wishing that u will notice it once. just once, or even a glimpse is enough to satisfy it. but nope, it was left unnoticed. the days past, one day it was raining. it was a big storm. u were running and running and finally u saw this big plant there. u decided to go there for shelter. and yes u did. the plant couldn't believe it and was overwhelmed. it tried all it could to give u protection and shelter u from the storm. u noticed the plant, the goodness of the plant then. but soon the rain stopped. and wad happened next? u left. without even turning back to look at the plant. just as the tree saw a glamour of light. like a silver lining in the clouds. it was soon gone before it can ever enjoy it. and now? to the plant, dark clouds loom over it all over again. the plant stands there in loneliness only to shed tears and wither away. and it silently hoping in the dark that one day u'll once again light up its life. it will always be waiting for u.

the newest happenings...

2005-11-05T21:41:00.000+08:00

- sa pub - sa gala dinner - 04/11/05 -

hey hey ladies and gentleman... presenting to u the latest attraction in sa. its non other than the sa pub. cool yeah? proudly presented during the the sa gala dinner. woah. something to look forward to? that's right! a place for all u thirsty souls out there.. hahaz. just look at the funky lights this new place will feature. aren't it cool? they even included the crest there, backlighted too! wooo and they even have flowers at every table.. see those cool flowers standing high and tall? just to lighten up the mood a little and beautify the place i guess.

oh they feature this vodka bar for all u people out there. i'm sure it's going to be realli popular. oh they even have those test-tube drinks. saw tons of test tubes stored behind the counters. hmm this vodka only features on the average about 40% alcohol only. just a few times stronger than the usual beers. hahaz..

they even feature a stage behind the vodka counter. see where the crest and the funky lights are? that's where the stage is. the dancers have already tested it out, though it may be a little small, could only have the 12 of them realli jumping and dancing around. so people, be prepared for a little squeeze, but i'm sure u'll be in for alot of fun anyway. this sure is going to be a sure hit among all of us i guess. i'm sad to say that the place is not that big, but sure much bigger than a normal pub. probably a capacity for a couple of hundreds. nothing more than that. hahahz. so yeah, people be prepared for the sa pub.. oh for all those health enthusiast out there.. its a smoke free environment!! no smoking by law... hahaz..

disclaimer: the above entry is pure crap and did out of pure lameness and boredom. nothing should be taken as reality. the brand names and logos appeared in the pic are properties of their respective owners. so there's no need to kick up a big fuss.. cheers.. (",)

days of bliss...

2005-10-26T15:19:00.000+08:00

hmmm i guess i'm just too bored. started making collages of different pictures and here is one of them. hahhz was playing around with the photoshop blurring tool and realised its quite nice. hahaz. well this 2 days are self-declared holidays for my class. lolx. funny how i'm just staying at home and rotting. wad a big sad case that is. but not too bad at least, got to sleep for like 13hrs, till 12+ just now. and i guess 3 hours after i wake up, i'm going back to sleep soon. hahaz.

well this collage is just one that shows that happy times of the past couple of weeks. hahaz. shall do bernie and zhu han a favour and save their trouble of doing it. hahaz. and oh yah. went east coast to cycle that day. so cool. second time cycling and i'm loving it already. guess cycling gives me that sense of freedom. learnt to appreciate ecp in a different manner. used to go there and jog and jog ang jog. now i got a new way to experience it. hahaz.

well its been pretty boring in school lately and guess maybe thats why we've been going out nearly everyday. hahahz for the exception of today. today is rest day for me. hahaz think tmr is another going out day. looking forward to it. but in the mean time i shall enjoy my beauty sleep. take care all. till the next time.. cya and God bless..

the spins...

2005-10-19T19:34:00.000+08:00

- the spins - toy fishing - 15/10/2005 -

i've been busy. so busy. i can't stand it. so many things just come one after another. i think i'm going nuts soon. to think i thought that after promos life will be much slower and easier. ok proven wrong. all these cca things, project work and other stuff are just driving me nuts. and yes it is giving me the spins. makes my world go round and round. well tons of things still left undone and the deadlines are all drawing near. why why why... someone tell me why...

well got my promos results back last friday, and saw the finalised ones ytd. realised my class is indeed a super power class. more than 10 people scored above 50points. like omg. well overall still quite disappointed in myself. (yeah i know u people are going to bombard me over this statement. but wadeva) nvm, wad over is over. don't want to think about it and let's not care about it. will only make matters worst. pw is driving me quite nuts. monday is dry run for oral presentation but sad to say my group has yet to come up with a single slide for it. guess we are so dead. wait, that's an understatement. sian diao...

oh i got into work shadowing. hehex. so happy. though i dint quite get wad i want to go, but nvm. it'll still be an enriching experience. got to go to cpf board. found out that i was supposed to be the only one going there, but last minute had 2 extra spaces so not that bad. 2 more guys going. phew. or not it'll realli be scary. hahahz. looking forward to it. though its only a few short days, but i'm sure it's going to be great. hahaz.

i'm like so busy yet so bored this few days. like i know got things to do but just can't quite get into the mood of doing. hahaz. oh and just realised like got more than 5 people bdae in a short span of 2 weeks. woah. amazing. but oh well. hahaz. realli going to be low budget this 2 weeks. hahaz.

the begining of the ending...

2005-10-13T19:23:00.000+08:00

argh dooms day is approaching soon. the clock is ticking fast. it is in 12hrs time. can u believe this? the efficiency of marking scripts is just so good la. the promos ended last week and this week we are getting back the scripts. oh no. this is bad. realli bad. realli scared i can't promote. haiz. nvm. let's think of it in a better way. but wait, did i mention that the papers were killers. well at least its going to kill me. hahahz. sad case. oh well but it finally ended last friday. hahaz i know its abit late that i'm only blogging about it now. oh well.

been busy with cca for quite sometime now. alot of things at hand that needs to be done. especially this open house coming up in 2 days. well i guess all will be quite dead and lifeless la given that they had to just kill our mood one day before it by giving us our papers. just had to kill all the fun from our weekends. sian diao. hmmm anyway let tmr worry for itself. let's live for today. coz it is the last day. lolx...

the pic below is just one lame creation that hh and me came up with la. was at jack's place the other day after promos. at first i made a smiley face using the left overs la. then took some pics but well not too nice. so then hh did this arrangement and made it look like a new meal. and using a nice angle to cover the shot made it seem so professional and the meal looking so attractive la. hahahz. its just a piece of chicken cutlet with 2 fries and some lettuce. well the red dots aren't sauce. its just some tobasco pepper sauce. hahahz. well it is one of my dreams to become an advertising/designer photogrpaher. so cool la. but oh well.. dreams...

anyway good luck to all who have yet to collect their promos results. u still have some time to spend and enjoy before doing so. oh and to those getting it back real soon. the promos survival guide i posted a couple weeks ago is surely going to come in handy. have fun...

- lunch express - jack's place - 7/10/05 -

ignorance is bliss

2005-10-02T21:07:00.000+08:00

- childhood innocence - east coast park - 24/09/05 -

hmm why as we grow older, everything around just seems to change and affects us so much? why can't we be like this child, playing at the beach, totally unaware of wad's happening around him? why must we be so weighed down by so many things. one after another. haiz....

here my promos are in 2 days. and wad am i doing? slacking my life away. watching tv. playing silly pool. chatting online. watching anime. surfing the net. everything except wad's needs to be done. wad is wrong with me? the same page has been there for hours. wad i read before that is gone. all gone. nothing gets inside my head. wad can i do?

when i want to study? things come up to my head. things other than studies. things other than wad i am studying just have to pop up in my mind. i get so distracted. wad's wrong with me? i know i should not be thinking of this at all. why do i long for something that i know will not come true? something that will just remain a dream or rather just yet another fantasy of mine. its something that is all so unrealistic. something that is all my wishful and willful thinking. the more i get closer, the more i seem distant. i was it darkness, alone, lonely and cold. when i saw it, i thought it was the sun rising. it gave me light, gave me company. but i can't seem to feel the warmth. i know i should not even be thinking about this, let alone regarding this as the rising sun. i feel as if i'm just deceiving myself, holding to something unreal. some say i think too much. that i got to agree. but when its u, i can't stop thinking....

i want to be a kid again...

never to be weighed down by wad's happening around us...

never need to think of anything else...

ignorance is bliss...

the end is near...

2005-09-27T17:17:00.000+08:00

- to the ends of the earth - melbourne, australia - 25/11/04 -

post GP reflections:

paper 1 -
well before i even flipped open the paper, i had this feeling i ought to do question 8. well dont' know why, once i flipped open and scanning through the questions, question 8 was the only one that i knew how to do. hmmm... think it was God hinting me. hehex.

paper 2 -
well couldn't quite understand the passage at first. had so much corrections to make and i was so disturbed. and the letharagy i was suffering from with only 3hrs of effective sleep last night was killing me. the passage was so chim. and all the questions were "in ur own words as far as possible" which makes my doom day. totally detest such questions. may God bless the teachers with compassion,

after papers -
went lunch with ka wing and company at bk. well it did felt it was like end of promos by the rate and the things we were doing. but sad to say it's only the first paper that's gone. so farnie la. zhu han was saying ka wing and i confirmed can get the aq full marks for supporting gay marriages. *she's implying something there* well and i just said she must have tore the 2nd passage up, which was against homosexuals. well after all, she has the right to her own view point, and in this case she did not agree with that author at all. *trying to imply something here too*

overall -
press on people... the end is near. as seen in my pic of the post. the end can be seen. it may seem far away, but indeed it is near. 5 more papers and 10 more days marks the end of promos and freedom. *well at least freedom for marking days* till the next update... God bless all...

a promo guides for dummies...

2005-09-17T15:55:00.001+08:00

ok folks, guys, gals, dudes, kids, children, students, pupils, classmates, schoolmates, gentlemen, ladies... welcome to the promo guides for dummies done by dodo angel. *claps*

due to the upcoming promos just round the corner and the severity of it to all jc1s out there, i've decided to come up with this quick guide to help all of us.

the countdown - general paper - 27-09-05 - 0800hrs :

number of days: 9 human days
number of hours: 224 earth hours

*time are taken with effect of 17-09-05 2400hrs (midnight) or 18-09-05 0000hrs (morning).

time count - hours used a day and in 9 days

8hrs of sleep - 72hrs gone
8hrs of school - 48hrs gone
3hrs of eating/bathing/wad so eva - 24hrs gone
2hrs of playing/watching tv - 18hrs gone
4hrs of outing on sat to relax - 4hrs gone
1hr of travelling time - 9hrs gone
3hrs of religious activity on sunday - 6hrs gone
5hrs of project work a week - 5hrs gone
1hr of musing over ur crush - 9hrs gone
0.5hrs of updating ur blog (3/wk) - 2hrs gone
0.5hrs of reading other blogs (3/wk)- 2hrs gone
1hr of telling urself u need to get off the com - 9hrs gone
1hr of counting how u are going to die - 9hrs gone

effective hours left: 7hrs

recover from shock - 15mins
tell urself u r so going to die - 15mins
reading on and finds the funeral guide - 15mins
call and get ready ur funeral - 30mins
writing ur last will for ur love ones - 30mins
call ur stead/crush and tell him/her u love her - 1hr
sits and stones and trying to accept the fact u r going to die - 30mins
recover and decides to start mugging - 30mins
deciding wad to start first - 30mins
clearing ur table and searching for notes - 30mins
realised u forgot to buy Mug rootbeer and goes nearest ntuc - 1hr
ur close friend calls u and whines how dead he/she is - 1hr

total time left: 15mins

maybe not... u just spent the last 15mins reading this dumb guide.
bad news...
u r left with no time...
i repeat no time...
adivce to you...
go to OG and buy 25 hours watch...
it gives u 1 extra hour a day...
sorri no discount...

List of useful numbers and webbys:

Casket Fairprice: 6455 9909

Trinity Casket Service: 64514496 (24 Hours)

Singapore Casket Service: 6293 4388 (24 Hours)

Straits Time Obituaries: 1800 289 9988 (Office Hours)

.................................... 6319 5192 (After Office Hours)

Virtual Memory Lane: Online web memorial(Cool!)

anyway still wishing all u people all the best in ur promo... this guide is just after all... a guide...

- end -

a promo guides for dummies...

2005-09-17T15:55:00.000+08:00

8hrs of sleep - 72hrs gone
8hrs of school - 48hrs gone
3hrs of eating/bathing/wad so eva - 24hrs gone
2hrs of playing/watching tv - 18hrs gone
4hrs of outing on sat to relax - 4hrs gone
1hr of travelling time - 9hrs gone
3hrs of religious activity on sunday - 6hrs gone
5hrs of project work a week - 5hrs gone
1hr of musing over ur crush - 9hrs gone
0.5hrs of updating ur blog (3/wk) - 2hrs gone
0.5hrs of reading other blogs (3/wk)- 2hrs gone
1hr of telling urself u need to get off the com - 9hrs gone
1hr of counting how u are going to die - 9hrs gone

Singapore Casket Service: 6293 4388 (24 Hours)

Straits Time Obituaries: 1800 289 9988 (Office Hours)

.................................... 6319 5192 (After Office Hours)

Virtual Memory Lane: Online web memorial(Cool!)

anyway still wishing all u people all the best in ur promo... this guide is just after all... a guide...

- end -

lonely...

2005-09-11T21:41:00.000+08:00

- lone star - mount faber - 31/7/05 -

hmmm its been a long and very boring week for me. total crap. think i'm fully decomposed till every single atom has been disintergrated into its individual components. electrons on one side, protons on one side and neutrons on one side. if u think i studied chem then u r seriously wrong. this week was supposed to be study week for me. not holidays. set out my mind to study study and study. guess wad? in the end... i did nothing. yes... nothing. its like.. hello? wake up!! promos is lik in 3 weeks and wad are u doing? slacking? stoning? rotting? all of the above? that's wad. argh...

this week have been quite a torture to me. don't know why but it just seems so. don't know why i feel so lonely out of a sudden. its like i'm that lone star in the dark dark sky. no one else is there. its all darkness around me. scary. and i think i'm starting to hallucinate. don't know why i keep thinking that my phone rang. there's an incoming message. hmmm i think i'm going nuts. the button is soon going to be spoilt by me. keep pressing to check for message. no idea why i'm this way, but i just can't help it. urgh. this sux.

let's see. i got a bio test tmr and i've been trying to study for it for like 3 days already. and so far i only completed like at most 6pages of my notes? well done dude.. absolutely well done. maybe i should just enjoy the new facilities at sav for 2 years. ok shall stop this demoralising tok. some happy things ahead...

hmm some realli nice yet insignificant things happened this week. i know i shouldn't been thinking about it, coz i'll jsut think too much and get out of point. but i can' stop musing over it. its just so sweet. nvm. i should realli stop thinking about it. well and once again after heading south for my holidays for the pat few years. i'm finally heading a new direction! east! if u think its china or japan that's wrong. that's north. yup i'm heading for the united states of america! just going to los angeles and surroundings for a trip in december. cool. haven't been on usa ground in 12 years. hahaz. and oh. my dad is getting a new camera. decided to upgrade from his previous 300d. now he's getting a 20d with a new lens as well. woah. hopefully my uncle can get it and bring it back when he comes back from the states next month. heehx. $3000 for the whole kit. and i'm forking out $500 since i think i'll be using it most of the time now... hahaz.. realli looking forward to it. but wait. shll curb my excitment. promos is in 16 days how nice uh. die. die die..

well done!! one week mc...
missing school till next monday....
i'm going to die die die...

-dead-

-.-"

end of darkness...

2005-09-04T20:52:00.000+08:00

hmmm its been quite sometime since i last blogged. hahaz. well guess i've been too busy this week. well, just take it that i was busy and not lazy. hehex. well its been quite a tiring week with all the project work and photog stuff to settle. had to rush that written report, and thanks for the hardwork everyone put in, managed to produce the final product at like 1am on monday morning with like 7hrs to the deadline. lolx. was crazy la. but well the effort put it was not at all wasted. looking at all the ticks in the checklist was just satisfactory. hahaz. could like just celebrate. ok i'm getting a little too excited here.

well and photog was also quite busy, the teachers' day powerpoint and teachers' day celebration duty i had. well and realli thanks to ronald that the powerpoint was great and received well response. even ms carol wong said we could like make inspirational posters with those added in slides with the inspirational caption. hahaz. oh well. oh and on teachers' day celeb it was so funny la. after the celebration i was just walking around taking pics. then those people returned their cameras to me one by one coz they couldn't find the teacher. then at one point in time i was like some christmas tree hanging with all the cameras. a 300d, d70, ixus, s50 and some olympus camera, and other equiment worth more than $6000. like woah. lolx. nvm then went back to vs after that.

vs stills give me that homely feeling. though i got back so late, i still saw mr alvin lim and mr wong wai lit. hahaz. those two are great teachers. lolx. then went to find my class at the parade square. they were like playing soccer, and half were like top-less la. (u can never do this if vs was to turn co-ed) but they had the figure that can make any gal drool la. even nose bleed. who ask my class to be a sports class. lolx. will blog about it the next time round. *hopefully...

well this week some what seems so gloomy to me, maybe coz of pure tiredness or due to other factors, which i can't disclose and not going to. some thoughts have been going through my mind. some thoughts that i've been wondering over something that should be sorted out quick and well. there are some boundaries that i think i should not cross. some territory that is prohibited to me. not nice when deterrence is used against me. nvm. but well finally its the holidays, well at least it is called the holidays, but in real life... let's not tok about it. hahaz. but this week is realli a week i'm going to look forward to. some interesting things are going to take place. well it might well be like the morning sun bringing me out of darkness... or it might just be the evening sun, disappearing bit by bit, leaving me in total darkness. hope u'll bring me that glamour of hope and brighten up my life. *at least for this week. hehex.

- end of darkness - sajc aces day - 31/08/05 -

learning journey...

2005-08-26T22:30:00.000+08:00

victoria thy sons are we...

2005-08-19T18:27:00.000+08:00

ok with the victoria school saga going around, i should show my loyalty this time by using red to blog. well it all started when people started to tell me to read this newspaper article on newpaper. i thought wad on earth was going on la. they even sent me the pic of the newpaper article. after reading it... i was like seriously omg.. wtf.. big time... i mean how on earth can they make victoria school co-ed??

hmm there seem to be like nearly immediate response from every single one that called themselves victorians. msn nicks were changed with all the "son of victoria" infront and their anti-coed slogan after that. needless to say, i did that too. this news that victoria school turning co-ed is realli sudden to me. i was all along aware about the vjc wanting to change the anthem, the line "victoria thy SONS are we" coz some gals felt unfair about that. its like for more than 20 years since vjc was first establish till now, nobody ever complained about it. and now? to me, even though i'm not in the victorian family anymore, it still bothers me much. once a victorian, always a victorian. that's wad. since in the first place they wanted to join vjc, they should accept the tradition and culture and not criticise them. its the victorian spirit that u people lack. not the anthem!

about vs turning co-ed, it realli is saddening. that means 129 years of all-boys culture going down the drain. it is something that has been built over the years, something that can't be changed when u feel like it. and we will not forget. the situation is such that the academic level in vs is dropping, so they are thinking of introducing gals into vs to pull the standard back up. at the same time providing more students to vjc for the ip program. i personally feel that, victorians should be given a chance. let them improve and prove the rest wrong that victoria is indeed something more. and we need no gals to come and improve the standard of vs. *not being sexist* at this moment all i can do is to call upon all victorians, past-present-future, to unite and stay united to come up with wad's best for vs. do sign the online petition @ http://vs.jonaize.com and air ur views and suggestions there.

nil sine labore

boring.. boring.. bored..

2005-08-07T20:49:00.000+08:00

hmm i realised its been quite sometime since i ever last updated. i find myself more of a procrastinator. i wanted to updated since like don't know when but all along was too lazy to do so. hahaz. oh well last time i was saying i was lucky to get into photog. now i realli need to thank God that i'm in photog ex-co! just an assistant chief photographer, that's all. well ronald and hwee hou has since joined. oh well. up coming project i have is the Epson Color Imaging Contest, suppose to hand in 10 pics for it. so yup people, this pic is one. i dont' know why, but i named it layered heaven. its shows like the different layers, from a warmth feeling to a cool feeling as it proceeds up the picture. find it quite nice though. if u were thinking it is taken in australia or something, guess u r wrong. that was taken during sunset at the top of mount faber. hahahz.

well toking about that, it realli pains my heart. my tripod failed me that very night and coz my camera to crash all the way to the floor. and sure it did enough damage to it. auto-focus won't work and i can't read my cf-cards. great. had to send for repair and till now its not back yet. so much for my dad toking about changing the 300D to a 350D and i destroyed the 300D. hahaz. sad case for me. am suppose to go take pics on nationald day. fireworks and stuff. but nope, now no more camera to do so. great. good game.

oh went festival of praise yesterday. it was kinda packed as usual. we nearly had to sit in the overflow room, but thank God we managed to get a sit behind the stage. lolx. well i don't know if it's me or wad. this year's FOP doesn't realli seem as nice as previous years. couldn't realli feel it. maybe its just me. the way this committee does it, its quite different from previous years and just seems weird. oh well. but i'm sure God's glory was magnified there. toking about this. on thursday we had a drama performance in the school audi. it was a drama cum testimony of Ms Carol Wong's life. i couldn't quite believe that she was like that when she was young. i'm sure each person had their own past. but to see Ms Wong as she is now, i realli realli thank God for her. she sure is one extraordinary person. God sure is using her in His very special ways to reach out to the world. it was so touching i nearly cried. ahahz. "nearly" is the key word here. hahaz.

oh well. tmr is national day celebrations in school. there's going to be like a carnival and concert. but the best of all... my class is chosen to do pillar painting!! hahaz. so cool. imagine painting it with the design. hahaz. did white washing that day, but sure need to draw and paint tmr. haahz. anyway hope it's going to be realli fun! alright till the next time.. cya people and God bless...

miracles do happen...

2005-07-22T17:00:00.000+08:00

well this is quite an extraodinary week. things that dint meant to happen happened. and sure this things are good! hahaz. realli got to thank God for all these things. well firstly its my common test. well i think i did better than i expected it to be, especially for my econs and math paper. well at first after doing the paper it sure seemes like confirm fail. but hmmm, realli by the grace of God, i actually passed both papers. well math wasn't realli that fantastic only got E. well, the best mircale was my econs. it was like i'm the only one that did the dumb 25marks essay question. and then the rest of the class were like suaning me saying i so brave go do. and guess wad i got 16. was only expectign single digit. lolx. realli realli thank God for that D. i can say i dint put in any effort for the paper. i only started working 2 days before the paper. so yup.... and oh yah. i lost hagen daaz ice cream to miang and a bowl of mee pok to nessa. coz i bet with them i'll fail either math or econs. lolx. sad and i dint even win any bets lar. how nice. -.-"

and miracle number 2. i finally joined a cca! lolx. it all seem dark and gloomy at first when the last days for signing up is drawing near. thought i'll join fitness together with HH, but was hesistant over it due to my injured knee and hip. so won't be able to do physical activites for quite a while. then that day during chinese class, laoshi ask if i got any cca. lolx. i said no. then she asked if i'm interested in joining photographic society. i seriously wouldn't mind since i dont' realli have much of a choice and given that i'm quite alright at photograhy and i got the equipment. then she found out that i'm acutally quite good, thanls to a few classmates of mine that saboed me. then she got quite excited and was even thinking of giving me a post if i'm proven to be good. so yup, the next day i accepted to join ps. oh and ronald joined too. lolx. now at least i won't be so bored during ps sessions. ahhaz. so its like suddenly the darkness and gloominess is gone. its like God opened a way for me. gave me a cca that i'm able to excel in and even gave me a friend there! ronald ho jia hao!! hahahaz.... i'm nuts...

oh and the moment i accepted the duty, guess wad? i had an assignment already. ronald and i were suppose to cover the thai exchange program vist to our school. had to go around taking pictures for them. they sure had a big big group lar. filled the ava. they gave a presentation of their school and i tell u, its like omg in a darn good way lar. there we had a short team sajc clip (the usual one), there they had a movie style kinda presentation lar. its like so much nicer and interesting. oh then they had a short thai dance performance and also basketball matches against out school. well our school won both got the guys and the gals. gals was qutie a tight game, while guys it was more of sajc. hahaz. oh and i took quite a number of pics of the matches lar. was experimenting with burst shooting. oh and number 4 of the gals thai team is like soooo cute. lolx. thanks to ka wing for calling me to take pics of her lar. thansk alot. wanted to post some pics here, but that dumb guy in ps cut the pics from my cf cards and pasted into the ps com. and i dint know, din check coz i thought he wouldn't be that stupid. but well, he was. so now my cf cards are totally blank. how great. so oh well. u people jsut got to wait till monday for the pics. idiot. nvm.... anyway enjoy the weekends and especially the dance prodcution.. Rapture!! hahaz.

there's no ever lasting banquet in this world...

2005-07-17T17:20:00.000+08:00

hmm well it's finally sunday. well that marks yet another week is gone and another dreaded week is staring me right in the face. great. well nothing much did happen in the past week. nothing special i guess. well maybe student council commendation ceremony but reali its nothing special.

went to pastor steve's house ytd for a short time of fellowship and farewell party for steve tan and khee ling. it was sort of a pot luck style. every group was supposed to bring something. so there were tons of food. oh not forgetting the popiah! lolx. it was like a popiah party. got catered popiah and we are suppose to wrap it ourselves. lolx. its like so fun lar. get to put wad u want. want more or wad and less of wad. hahaz. its like the first time i'm wrapping popiah the correct way. the first popiah wasn't as nice, but still edible with things dropping out. but the second one. i got the technique of wrapping and putting the ingredients in, and it wa great. it realli looked like one that u can get from a popiah stall outside. and best thing of all. nothing dropped at all when i was eating it!! yay! lolx. *ok this sounds dumb.

oh and sze brought a cake along. we said she just wanted us to celebrate her bdae for her. lolx. the cake was from awfully chocolate. its like so rich and sinful. lolx. the whole thing is just chocolate and more chocolate. hahaz. now let's tok about khee ling and steve tan. lolx. we had a short time of sharing to wish them all the best and give them our heart felt thanks. khee ling will be leaving at the end of this month, while steve is still unsure. so yup. the two of them are truly extraordinary people to me. a couple that is realli God blessed till the overflowing. its realli such a blessing and joy to have them in the midst of us. wad more can i say? i realli thank God for the both of them and truly will miss the both of them. but like wad khee ling said, her email never changes, her phone number never changes and the best of all... singapore is so tiny. hahaz.

well here is my personal message to all, especially those in petra church. it may be a bit sudden to u people, but hope u people will take it as it is. i'll be leaving petra for another church at the end of august. will be stepping down from my pa/sound ministry as well. however, u'll still get to see me during youth services till i can find and settle in a new one. so yup. *sorri to spoil the party and celebrations yeah? just postpone it a few more months lar. won't die. lolx.* well yup that's all i have to say about that.

here is a verse to khee ling and steve and all those who have been serving the Lord ever so faithfully...

"For God is not unjust to forget your work and labor of love which you have shown toward His name, in that you have ministered to his saints, and do minister." Hebrews 6:10

praying that all u people will have a blessed week ahead and for the chinese 'ao' listening comprehension tmr! God bless all!

yet another week...

2005-07-10T16:01:00.000+08:00

hmm well its yet another week. how quickly that's the end of the second week of term 3. time realli flies at times. well this week can be considered as boring though. tuesday marked the end of exams, with bio spa being the last paper. it was quite fun though. those small bead like globules so fun to play with. lolx. then wed and thurs were just normal school days. can u believe it? i got no marking day at all lar. like wth. oh oh. got some good news though. our gp teacher changed. no longer ckp. he has to take over the duties of being hod, so we can't fit into his time table so we got a new teacher.

well i got back some results though. chinese, chem and part of bio. for chinese and chem, had to ask for 1 mark each to jump grade and phew! i got it! hahaz. but realli disappointed in myself for chem. i actually used the wrong number on the periodic table as Mr of the element. like OMG la! imagine me a jc1 student making such careless mistakes and cost me 7marks!! that's like 1 grade can. argh! wad a unforgivable mistake i made. then for don't know wad reason the relief bio teacher just had to return us part of the bio paper. haiz. did pretty ok for it i guess, dint expected it to be so high though. lolx and the top 3 in class for that paper are sitting together la. 3 consecutive index numbers. lolx. think she is going to suspect us for cheating. lolx. but the worst is yet to come. come tomorrow i'm going to die. GP, math and econs. going to expect 2 Fs already. nuts.

well ytd was quite a fun day la! except in the morning had to go to SGH to see the specialist to check on my knee and hip. giving me problems lately. the way he rub and press is like OUCH! its like so darn pain lar. and i felt worst after that lar. then now he is giving me 1 month worth of medicine for it. and wants me to go visit him 1 month later. argh! oh and i got to go for physiotherapy too. sian. then later in the afternoon went church for youth. hahaz. this session was fun lar. got to research on different theories that Jesus didn't realli resurrect. the most interesting and lame one being. Jesus jsut fainted and dint die. so 3 days after He was put in the thomb, He suddenly revived, unwrap the burial cloth around Him, pushed open the 2 tons rock covering the thomb, then fighting and overpowering the soldiers guarding the thomb, and finally walking miles after miles to Emmaus. wad rubbish lar. lolx. there are other interesting but untrue theories too. hahaz...

oh then later met up with my primary school friend. hahaz. its been 4 years la. took me quite some while to find and recognise and register. hahaz. wanted to watch fantastic 4, but then can't pre-book coz need credit card to collect, which obviously i don't have. then nvm. so ended up walking around plaza sing aimlessly... then tracked up orchard road past center point and reaching heren. then we decided to leave orchard and head for harbour front. lolx. how lame that is lar. then nvm. oh at harbour front. just went to eat at mcdonalds. funny how we mixed some different sauces together till it looked so gross and said even more gross stuff about the food. mircale that we managed our food and the sauce without puking. hahaz. then after which we walk around harbour front. oh and i just realised that harbour front does have some very nice shops to get cute stuff and also presents are easily found there. lolx. so now i know where to go. and we like practically tok non-stop. lame stuff and everything under the sun lar. hardly had breaks in between our conversation. omg la. hahaz. but soon all good things have to come to an end and had to head home. oh and about ur bdae present. (u know who u r) i still got to reflect and meditate upon it first. still not done with that. after which i'm done with and u'll get the answer. hahaz. thanks for everything though. realli nice to catch up with ya once again!

the lord and the ant...

2005-07-04T15:04:00.000+08:00

Brenda was almost halfway to the top of the tremendous granite cliff. She was standing on a ledge where she was taking a breather during this, her first rock climb. As she rested there, the safety rope snapped against her eye and knocked out her contact lens. "Great", she thought. "Here I am on a rock ledge, hundreds of feet from the bottom and hundreds of feet to the top of this cliff, and now my sight is blurry."

She looked and looked, hoping that somehow it had landed on the ledge. But it just wasn't there.

She felt the panic rising in her, so she began praying. She prayed for calm, and she prayed that she may find her contact lens.

When she got to the top, a friend examined her eye and her clothing for the lens, but it was not to be found. Although she was calm now that she was at the top, she was saddened because she could not clearly see across the range of mountains. She thought of the bible verse "The eyes of the Lord run to and fro throughout the whole earth."

She thought, "Lord, You can see all these mountains. You know every stone and leaf, and You know exactly where my contact lens is. Please help me."

Later, when they had hiked down the trail to the bottom of the cliff they met another party of climbers just starting up the face of the cliff. One of them shouted out, "Hey, you guys! Anybody lose a contact lens?"

Well, that would be startling enough, but you know why the climber saw it? An ant was moving slowly across a twig on the face of the rock, carrying it!

The story doesn't end there. Brenda's father is a cartoonist. When she told him the incredible story of the ant, the prayer, and the contact lens, he drew a cartoon of an ant lugging that contact lens with the caption, "Lord, I don't know why You want me to carry this thing. I can't eat it, and it's awfully heavy. But if this is what You want me to do, I'll carry it for You."

I think it would do all of us some good to say, "God, I don't know why You want me to carry this load. I can see no good in it and it's awfully heavy. But, if You want me to carry it, I will."

God doesn't call the qualified, He qualifies the called.

Yes, I do love GOD. He is my source of existence and my Savior. He keeps me functioning each and every day. Without Him, I am nothing, but with Him...I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me. (Phil. 4:13)

GOD is marvelous and we can never comprehend the things He does - accept it with faith for He loves us more than we ever know. At some point in our lives, asked God "Why ME?" May this answer be enough to carry you through the difficulties.

freedom...

2005-07-02T20:08:00.000+08:00

phew... finally the exams are like over. so glad. glad to know that my failing spree is over. hahaz. exams realli sux. don't know how am i suppose to face my results. argh. hope they never come. no worries. i'll post the previous Help List again after the release of results. and maybe we can mass order. chepaer i hope. hahaz.

and finally its the weekends. like woah! well nothing much happen today though. woke up quite early this morning just to go to the doc. this medical center is like located in the heart of raffles place. 29th floor of the republic building. cool siah. oh went there to see the doc about my leg. getting quite alot of problems lately. then after some examination. he said i has a weak knee. hmm that's why sometimes somethings in there just goes out of place. and my hip joint too giving me some pain and discomfort. its since young though. so apparently he is sending me to see a specialist in sgh next sat. so oh well. oh and he said its going to affect my ns enlisement grade too. darn. no more commando! arhhhh! *not like i want to be it like that. just saying. hahahz...

oh then went to church. today got a special workshop on wad's praise and worship and stuff. and the proper way to do it. learnt quite alot today. interesting session. hmm should i go and listen vocal training for subsequent weeks? hahaz. and it took quite some time though. ate 1 hr into youth. then poor stephanie came and left soon after... sorri uh...

hmmm and i was shocked today. think my parents feeling too rich out of a sudden. was having dinner. then don't know how we started tokling about university. my dad knows i simply love new zealand so he said. if he can he'll send me there for uni education. then my mum said, "u better don't promise him that." i thought she will say no money and wad not. but not. guess wad she said. "i might want to send him to USA for uni and not new zealand." i'm like.-.-" seriously i won't mind going to orchard for my uni education. SMU that is. hahaz. that's not all. my dad went to buy this fm transmitter for his iPod. always said wad's the use of it to him, no use. then he go buy. nvm. oh oh... but i'm so happy he finally bought the camera lens!! YAY!!! ROX!!

55-200mm F4-5.6 DC

This lens has a minimum focusing distance of 110cm (43.3in.) and maximum magnification of 1:4.5.High performance 3.6x telephoto zoom lens suited a wide range of shooting conditions, such as portrait, sports, nature. The focus and zoom rings provide easy operation in manual mode. A distance scale on the focus ring is an easy to use and convenient addition.

post chemistry trauma...

2005-06-28T17:02:00.000+08:00

hmmm 2nd days of exams and i'm already coming out with ahelp package to all those people like me. especially after today's chemistry paper. i realli think this help guide will come useful for a lot of people.

List of useful numbers and webbys:

Casket Fairprice: 6455 9909

Trinity Casket Service: 64514496 (24 Hours)

Singapore Casket Service: 6293 4388 (24 Hours)

Straits Time Obituaries: 1800 289 9988 (Office Hours)

.................................... 6319 5192 (After Office Hours)

Virtual Memory Lane: Online web memorial(Cool!)

oh and not forgetting this very cool and nice pic to recommend to all u people. never forget this, though its usually just used for a few days and it gets burnt. nevertheless, its important lar...

anyway still wishing all u people all the best in ur exams... this help list is just in case anything happens.. =x

to ask or not to ask? that's the question...

2005-06-26T20:16:00.000+08:00

hmm today is one of the sundays that i actually dint go petra church. went to st. matthew's instead. it is somewhat familar to me as i once was there during my kindergarten days. to think i can still remember. hahaz. was there for the chinese service and man its either i couldn't see the youths or i was realli the 3rd youngest there. hahaz. its quite a new experience to me. and oh its an anglican church, related to st. andrew's too. was looking through one of their bulletins and found a write up on the success of sajc fun fair. hahaz. cool.

how quickly tmr will be the start of a fresh new school term and the start of my first ever major exams of my jc life. no idea why they call it common test though, makes it sound so unimportant. hahaz. well i can say i'm not prepared at all. why must students go through exams? wad's the use? does it realli make us creative and thinking students? well, maybe. think why exams are there and creative reasoning to parents and teachers why we dint do well. hahaz. oh well shall see how things go. i feel so lazy and slack. there's no exam pressure. maybe because its the school holidays that we are taking to study. err wait. wad holidays? were there? i dint know. =x

anyway here is still an encouragememnt to all those taking exams and facing the new school term... "I can do all things through Christ that strenghtens me." Philipians 4:13. That was wad that guided me through my o lvls, coz realli nothing is impossible to God. ask for His wisdom. it just as easy as just believing and asking!

there are like things that i want to ask. just curious to know. but curiousity kills the cat?(can't remember wad animal though =x) somethings its not that i don't care. i realli want to know coz i care. and there's something i wanted to ask, but just that i'm not sure if i should.i dislike the feeling of being turned down, but i think sometimes if i never do ask. i'll never ever know wad the answer is and will regret it some day. i'm just looking for that time to ask. hope it'll be soon...

chemistry is driving me nuts...

2005-06-23T12:57:00.000+08:00

I am attracted to you
Like an electron to a proton
Together we form an ionic bond
Though we are opposite charged ions
I am drawn towards you...

Our love is unique as an orbital
For only two electrons can fill this space
As my love for you increases
My energy level rises
I am in this excited state
Increasing the tendency to form a chemical bond...

If I was an element
It took you to make me a compound substance
Falling in love with you is a chemical reaction
Which cause my love for you to grow...

Ours is an exothermic love
Each giving of love not just absorbing it
Sometimes you do something especially nice
Which speeds up the chemical process
Like a catalyst in my increasing love for you...

I realise we have our inhibition periods
And sometimes I am selfish enough
To be an endothermic reaction
Only absorbing your love
The feeling i have for you is so intense
It cannot be measured in kilojoules...

Often I have to make a qualitative elementary analysis
To understand and love you more
But i don't expect to know your empirical formula
You are too complex a person for that...

WHEN YOU ARE GONE, I AM A NOBLE GAS
AN INERT SUBSTANCE
WHEN I AM WITHOUT YOU
THE WORLD SEEMS STILL
AND I AM AT EQUILIBRIUM.......

officially broke...

2005-06-19T21:45:00.000+08:00

oh wow. how quickly its yet another week. there goes the 3rd week of "holidays". this means that i'm left with 1 last week to prepare for exams. oh well let's not tok about that. super demoralising.

oh today is father's day and the day i'm officially broke. hahaz. went to cafe cartel to give my parents a treat today. went the one at raffles city for dinner. hmmm. wanted the st. louis ribs at first, coz that's wad my dad has been eyeing for always we pass by cafe cartel. then i saw this stupid notice at the counter. the list of unavailable food. St Louis Ribs was first on the list and in BOLD! i was like... wth... thanks so much for coming here and tell me don't have lar. so in the end we ended up with soft shell crab, sirlon steak and some other ribs. can't remember the name though. it cost be nearly $60. hahaz. there goes the last of my savings. oh then they had this student card promotion. spend $30 or more and they'll give u a student discount card in ur name. quite cool. hahaz. and its FREE. *lolx... i'm not kiasu lar.

and today in church Ps John was preaching on God as our Father in line with Fathers' Day. well at least that is wad i took it for. hhaz. then i came past this verse that i think i'll like to share with all of u.. just unkonowingly came past it and i think God wants me to tell us something..

"Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest." Matthew 11:28

Jesus said those words in the New Testaments. its a promise for u and me. i know most of us are preparing for the common test (well at least for those in JC) and i know its getting very taxing and everybody is getting sick and tired of it. so Jesus has gave us the perfect solution! go to Him, ask for His wisdom and peace to be with you. God will give peace and rest to all those who are weary. those who thinks u can't do it, u r wrong! I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!(Philipians 4:13) so wad are u waiting for? God, our heavenly Father is waiting for us to turn to Him and tell Him all ur worries and give Him all ur burdens to Him and He will definetly give u rest and peace! its as easy as that! just believe in Him, Christ Jesus our Lord! Amen to that!

God bless all of u!! Have a blessed and fruitful week ahead!!

05s62 bbq @ pandan valley

2005-06-14T14:12:00.000+08:00

had the current 05s62 bbq @ nessa's place, pandan valley. it is like some condo that is so big lar. i think i can like get lost inside there lar. then before that the 4 organisers, danny, ronald, hwee hou and me went holland village to get a bdae cake for nessa and annabelle. we liked walked all around the area to look for a nice cake that is reasonably priced too. went from place to place ending up at n.y.d.c. then found out there's like no happy bdae words on it, so went to chocolate art to get this chocolate coin thingy that says happy bdae on it, just to put it on the cake. lolx.

final product which is simply delicious...

oh then jsut went early played basketball. don't know why sometimes suck like crap.. then suddenly darn pro. ok rather tyco. then waited for the rest to come and start the bbq. hahaz. oh and from this bbq i found out something interesting... that is the different types of people...

oh then we celebrated the bdae for the both bdae gals. actually it was like suppose to only celebrate annabelle's bdae and not nessa first so to make her jealous, but decided not to. kinda mean. then also wanted to throw both of them into the pool, but found out there's a guard at the swimming pool. nuts. then ended up giving them a surprise by throwing water at time using 2 big plastic bags, just to give them a surprised. then all of us will start singing happy bdae and the cake will appear from the bushes.. hahaz.. lame but it worked out well. hahaz. oh and after that all annabelle cared about was that only half her hair was wet and the other half dry. -.-"

oh i also uncovered a scandal going on in class... thanks to my wonderful PI skills...

oh then we had water fight between ronald, warren and me. all thanks to hwee hou that dint get wet at all. should have wet him siah. darn. oh then the stupid class decided to freak me out by having some lame plan. when i left to get my bag at nessa's house, they all disappeared, so when i come back all of them disappeared, only left me alone at the pit. call them they don't want to pick up. even pick up already they'll make scary noises like.. "help..help..help.." and "come to the toilet now.." at first i thought annabelle, nessa and rachel realli had to go to the toilet, but after all it was a scheme to leave me alone. then they even called me 30mins later to tell me there's something scary at the toilet ask me go look for them. i thought it was real lar. turned out to be a plot to just let the others get back to the bbq pit area when i was away. so when i went back they started to scare me that they were there all along. as if i was scared lar. lamers... oh well.. better luck next time..

finally presenting to all u people.. 05s62 of st andrews junior college...

Click Here for All the Pics on Photobucket.

ex-05s62...

2005-06-11T10:26:00.000+08:00

oh finally it is the end of the week already, which makes the end of the 2nd week and the mid point of this school holiday. and i haven't do much yet. nvm...

anyway today teh ex-05s62 went to wan li's house for a bbq cum gathering. and it's at this cool condo The Carribean, which is like so nice lar. though some people couldn't make it, or rather about 1/3 of the class couldn't make it, but guess we still had fun. just had a little food, not much. think there were more snacks than bbq food. sad.

bbq pic taken during 1st 3 months.

then we were there planning to paly basketball but then the half court was used up some kids. but they are super pro. 3 of them seem lower primary with 2 bigger ones in secondary school i think. then we play with them 5 vs 5. 5 jc1 vs 3 lower pri + 2 sec school. ok we lost like crazy. they are like darn pro. coz maybe of their small size they just zoom here and there with teh speed and agility. they also played super rough like just grab the ball from u, don't even give way to gals lar. and i think kids now a days go for third language lessons even in primary school lar. not jap, not korean, not frence etc, but vulgar language. i was like shocked lar using those kinda language at their. i was like omg. oh well...

then wanted to send her home at first. but she disappeared so fast by the time i came down from wan li's house to put stuff. she was gone. oh well. looks like some things just aren't meant to be.

is this just a wishful dream of mine? if so i should just wake up...

being weighed down....

2005-06-07T20:28:00.000+08:00

sign language is fun. just realised. so happi. now i learnt something new. signing. then also learnt how to sign the singapore pledge and also another song, uniquely you. the peldge is still ok. the song. can just like give up, its so fast and so much to sign which means i can't even catch up at all. hahaz. well needs practice..

oh well and things are happening around me.. my family.. in chruch and other places lar... i feel so weighed down by everything.. i'm getting very ired of all these. i dont' know why i'm so bothered by it lately. i just can't seem to stop getting affected by it. can't seem to smile much. i just feel like going to some place where there's no such things for me to think about, coz its seriously very saddening.

don't seem to be getting anywhere.. is it me? am i thinking too much? or is it just true? is this whole thing just a dream of mine? if so i dont' wish to wake up.. hopefully time will tell it..

new skin done...

2005-06-05T20:17:00.000+08:00

yay! finally got this done. edited it like crazy. *a combination of a few different ones though* coz the original one doesn't work so yeah. still looks plain and wad not, hope to improve on it soon.. =)

anyway its been quite a boring week i got to say... this is my week:

Monday: bio make-up -> home
Tuesday: pw @ ronald's place -> home
Wednesday: grandma's house -> home
Thursday: computer fair(sux) -> home
Friday: think i stayed home whole dae
Saturday: youth -> home
Sunday: church -> home

hmm it may seem like i got alot of things but infact its nothing. i still think i spent more than 10hrs a day sleeping, the remaining hours my com is on and i'm infront of it. i'm amazed wad i can do infront of my com for so long. come to think of it, i do nothing except stone and chat and maybe play FM2005(yes old game). oh well.

oh and youth is going to start on a new series on "discipleship". think its going to be real cool. so youths do come and join. its going to be quite long at least 20 weeks if i'm not wrong. well i already did the first 5 before but its sure interesting. God has something new for us each time. so youths please do join us! any body interested can ask me too! hahahz. and today's church service well.. once again on pa duty, both services. so yeah. but this time i'm teamed up with my long lost relative, kelvin KOH. i'm a KOH too that's why. oh well i'm getting lame. woah.. and realli today english service had like qutie alot of people. realli happi to see it grow within sucha short period of time. thank God for that. Hallelujah!

oh oh and an update to my previous post. 1st 3 months 05S62 we are meeting this coming Friday, 10th June, instead of sunday. please take note. same time (5.30pm) and same place (the carribean). cyaz there peeps! no change to the current 05S62 meeting though but can all those who owe money please hand in to me ASAP! $10 that's all is it too much? hahahz. oh well.

hmm... and tmr there's going to be sign language lessons in school.. hahaz. rox! think it is realli going to be interesting. its part of the Mass Signing Project. its like 3000 people gathering at the Marina South area (i think) on national day, 9th August (if u people dint know =X) then we will sign the national pledge out and also a national day song. wonder how am i going to remember the signs. hahaz. but nevertheless i'm sure its going to be fun. oh oh and tmr is the first official pw meeting for my group. hope it's going to be fruitful. hahaz.

oh and here's a nice verse that the pastor shared today:

Pilate therefore said to Him, 'Are You a king then?' Jesus answered, 'You say rightly that I am a king. For this cause I was born, and for this cause I have come into the world, that I should bear witness to the truth. Everyone who is of the truth hears My voice.' John 18:37

Jesus is the truth. I have heard Him. Have you?

alright.. wishing all of u have a blessed week ahead.. remember this: God will never forget you!

boring boring dae~

2005-05-30T16:18:00.000+08:00

ok today marks the start of 28 days countdown to common test. and wad have i done? go school and stone in bio make up class. then rot and waste time at harbour front with some friends. then start laming and crapping at McDoanlds then walk around aimlessly and end up at Starbucks. how boring can my holidays get? its only the first day of the holidays and already so bored. argh!

anyway hope things get better. 12th june 1st 3 months 05S62 gathering at wan li's house (yes..again) for a bbq i think (yes... again x2) please tell me wad food ull be bringing. must be halal. then 13th june current 05S62 gathering at vanessa's place. those who owe me $$ better pay up soon. or else u can just come and not eat and not drink anything. find ur self lucky that the air is free.. or is it not? -.-"

3rd dae and counting.. i'm so going nuts.. i so wanna tok to u.. argh! i so miss u.. can't stand it anymore.. arhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!

the feeling to be free...

2005-05-28T21:34:00.000+08:00

Dear Dairy (by popular demand),

Today is a realli wonderful day to me! hahaz.. like went to Puala Ubin with my youth group. (Puala Ubin is an island situated at the north eastern part of Singapore if u people dint know) had to go to Changi Village to take the bumpboat to go there. and like woah! the changi village jetty is like totally changed. so new with arrival hall and departure hall and wad not. hahaz.. so ncie lar. nvm. then there were 13 of us.. we like just nice fit into 1 boat. by right 12 passangers and 2 crews. but since there was only 1 crew. so yeah. hahaz.. then like take about 10mins there. very long never go le.. so excited.. *sound like a small kid*

then reach there. first thing go get the map of the island so we know where to go. then went to rent bicycle. and given the smart guy i am. never knew how to ride a bike. *yes deprived childhood..blah blah blah..* i had to share a doubles bike with someone. then just as we were testing the bike. i found out a big big problem. my legs were too long. i can't pedel without hitting the handles and get stuck. Uh oh.. trouble time. no doubles bike fit me and i can't ride a single bike for nuts. but nevertheless, i still rented a single bike and my friends decided to give me a crash course. i always thought that learning cycling takes a darn long time. but i was wrong. my teachers for the dae: Ps Steve, Steve-ge ge(both Steve and different people), Steph er-jie, Khee Ling jie-jie, Caifen jie-jie. hahaz. they gave me crash course. this advice and that advice. at first it was realli realli very hard. dint get to balance and stuff. always tilting. then falling. but by God's grace and the help of Steve & Ps Steve. hahaz.. i managed to get the hand of it. started out cycling for 3m then 5m then 10m then slowly without knowing i travelled for more than 100m. and fianlly don't know how long without falling! hahaz. like so happi.

but all was not so smooth sailing though. i like fell 4 times in total. 3 being major accidents. but realli thank God, despite all the crashing into the bushes and stuff (you'll know wad i'm toking if u went Ubin before) i'm alive and well. only got some slight bad brusies on my left wrist area and a broken blister. i got no open injury at all! like woah! but i think i caused an injury to my knee again. its like hurting once again. old injury. crapz. then we just cycled cycled cycled around Ubin. so fun lar. oh gosh. first time i felt so free! the feeling is just fantastic. back to nature. but sure it was hot! sun burning us all. hahaz. i'm quite burnt now. but not till that extend. haahz.

oh then after we cycled to the beach. played some stupid game. the bang bang bang..who died? hahaz. so lame lar. and some people still don't get it. hahaz. then never mind. after that went back to the main jetty there to return the bike. like fianlly after so long. hahaz. then went to the seafood restaurant there to have dinner. the food simply ROX! seafood big meal! hahaz. ROX! but still can't beat the toilet being there for me to wash my face and hands after sucha long day! hahaz. felt so refreshed after that. then eat and tok and eat and tok. so lame lar. few of the guys felt so high and lame keep doing stupid things. nvm. then soon we took the boat back to mainland.

oh oh! and on the bus from changi village to tampines. macus, kelv and me were like so darn high lar. we lame like crapz.. (must be the chilli crab we ate earlier =x) Steph realli couldn't stand us lar (that's why she was sitting down and so were we) hahaz. then there was this guy just sitting next to us. he was like so darn entertained by our downright lame and cold crapz... he so wanted to laugh but dare not laught out. he was like trying so hard not to. wanted to tell him to laugh or not later get internal injury. hahaz... *gosh i'm still high now* and finally took the mrt home and i'm home now! crapping here with leg pains.. butt pains... arm pains... wonder how to survive through service tmr. hahaz. *nitez and God bless everyone!

feel so uneasy and weird not being to tok to u for a day. i'm like so eager to tok to u. but oh well. just realli want to tell u i miss u.. i realli do.. (",)

the day in the life of a pig...

2005-05-23T20:59:00.000+08:00

oh gosh. how quick today is monday already. but luckily today is a public holiday. slpet till like 11am thinking it was only 8 or 9am. hahaz. oh well then nvm. then came online to stone and slack. so bored. nothing much to do. then decided to cook my own lunch. the cheese omelette i cooked... rox! hahaz. so nice. then continued to slack online. till like 3+pm so tired. read half a comic and went to sleep. ended up waking at 6+pm. gosh i'm good lar. its like 8.38pm now,but i've only been effectively 6hrs awake. man i'm good. wad a piggy i am. *oinks...

oh well my weekend was GREAT! hahaz. oh well. at least for yesterday. my parents left me home alone and went malaysia with their friends. only coming back later tonight. oh crapz. nvm.. saturday had youth was on the 2nd part of End Times. quite interesting i got to say. haahz. and oh yah. Youth outing this coming sat to Puala Ubin. ROX! hahaz. but the sad thing is that i can't cycle for nuts -.-" oh well shall just lag behind somewhere and soon i'll be pushing the bike while jogging. hhaz. oh anyway on sunday, went church as usual in the morning. and the most funni thing happened then. my dear friend forget the handphone... left it at home.. wanted to go home take.. realised no home keys... wanted to call home.. but dint know the house number. champion is the only word i can use. end up i got to call my other friend to get the house number. lame.

oh then after church went out with her to study. lolx. met at city hall and guess wad? met a group of saints there. hhaz. they went ofr big walk. hmm never went big walk before. should try it one time. hahaz. then walked over to the mcdonalds beside bras basah complex to study. hahaz. oh and i got to say that math tut 10 is so interesting. all the 3D figures and stuff.. hahaz.. and i got to say that gals just can't picture them out. hahaz. took like nearly 4hrs to complete the tutorial with only like 4 questions. lolx. toking about it coming out for common test which is only 2hrs long. hhahz. then did econs? hahaz. quite funni lar sometimes. then no idea how we ended up toking about pens and started trying this pen and that pen. lolx. then spent like 7hrs there toking and studying. hahaz. realli had a very nice time. miss it already.. awwwww.... (",) will there be a next time? please tell me yes... hahaz

ok back to reality... this week is the last week of school! yay! short week also.. friday half day today public holiday. hahaz... but then quite some work to do. wednesday chem test. hahaz. and that sux. don't even feel like studying... oh well... hahaz... alright then everybody take care and have a blessed week ahead! nitez! *going to sleep soon.. hahaz...

i wish i was invisible...

2005-05-20T20:28:00.000+08:00

ok today election dae... should i tok about it? guess i'll just say that i totally screwed it up. was so nervous and that's that. i sux. so be it. now to look for an alternate cca. i so feel like being invisble after that. just wanted to disappear. looking at weird looks people gave me. i so wanted to just vanish into think air. i know it was bad. wait bad is an understatement. oh crapz. think i'll just vanish for good. never ever to appear again. will i be ever to do that?

anyway this week got back all the test results... bio, chem, econs. hahaz. guess they were quite alright, though those aren't realli my real marks. =X luckily its the weekends again. time seems to fly. and oh yah. today i skipped my first ever leture. there goes my clean sheet. stayed in the cafe to play carom. learned this new way called "bullets" where the objective is to make a person accumulate 7 seeds and he is dead. i died the first round. nvm, took revenge after that. completing 2 games in 7mins. pro ah? oh and i heard some speculation that for the elections, all the 3 guys in my house got pass. which i seiously doubt it. i can never get in. never. everyvody did better than me. yup...everybody. hahaz.

this weekends is going to be interesting once again. parents leaving for malaysia with their friends tmr for the entire long weekends. and i'm home alone. well guess my activities are sorta planned. sat: grandma house to set up my aunt's new computer then go youth. sun: church and then go out with her(hopefully). mon: to be decided. anyway realli hope she'll come chuch with me this sunday then can go out after that. oh well. and oh yah. my youth will be having an outing to puala ubin next sat and i can't cycle for nuts. *argh! anyway once again hope she'll come along. it's fun. hehex.

once again u are not dumb. realli u r not. oh well. anyway just to tell u that ur smile realli makes my day. still can picture out ur smile now. so sweet. =x thanks for all those jiayou msg but guess i jsut dint do that well. *soobs. jsut want to tell u do take care lots...

stars and hearts...

2005-05-16T20:53:00.000+08:00

argh! its monday again. anyway had quite a fruitful weekends. did quite somethings hw, tut and campaign stuff. and saturday was great i got to say. hahz though it wasn't for quite long but hopefully there'll be other oppotunites like that. oh well and then went to Art Friends on sunday, how crap lar. spend so long there looking for something to do my campaign stuff.. ended up with some foam to make a handphone chain kinda thingy. with the design as seen below. oh well. hope i can get into council. and today is monday le and still haven't do my posters. and i'm so tired now... Zzz-.-"

oh well suppose to have napfa today. but it rained cats and dogs. so yeah. hopefully it'll be the same tmr. =x anyway it realli doesn't matter when i have it. still fail anyway. darn pullups can't do 4. crapz.. oh well.. still dont' know wad to do for campaigning! argh.. anyway please vote for Malcolm! tell ur friends about me! please please!

just reallnt to let u know that i realli care for you... it realli worries me when u say things that are not true... even if its true... (which the if willver happen...) i wouldn't mind a single bit... realli hope u'll get over it real soon... do take care....

serving from the heart....

friday the 13th...

2005-05-13T19:32:00.000+08:00

finally its the end of the week which means the weekends are here!! yeah! anyway, its not rest time. its work for me. work work work. firstly, i got my dear econs essay which is so called a test, and i have totally no idea how to write it. need help!! secondly, i got my beloved PI to do. its the final week left to do it since my first one was rejected. crapz. with all the other tutorials in place, wad weekend can i have? hahz. oh yah! i forgot i got my council campaign things to do! i haven't started! need help once again!

hmmm.. have been seeing all those campaign people are doing. got to say some are nicely done, some are just pure irritating? hahaz. oh yah and annabelle got her flags done already. i feel so inferior now. and i actually put her flag on my file to help her advertise. hahaz. how nice of me. nevermind. i'll try my best to do something and get it done soon. hopefully to bring SAJC by storm on monday! yes i will! but i still need help! hahahz.

even though today is friday the 13th. nthing bad did happen. got to see my CT for 4hrs today. 30mins civics.. 1hr30mins chem lect.. 1hr30mins chem prac.. 30mins moral ed.. how nice. then during ME it was like we were suppose to identify pictures of us when we were young and identify who is who. people thought i was guan chee. hahaz. oh well. then after school thought no NUH tok, which in the end it was acutally today. missed it. the CCC Sisterhood just sat in the cafe and eat and tok and tok and tok and tok and tok and tok and tok... *ok u get the point* for like nearly 2hrs. gosh. finally realised it was 5pm and time to go home. haahz. and here i am typing this and after which i'll try and get my pi done by tongiht. no no not try. its MUST! argh!

i guess i'm just thinking too much. i realli care that's why i take the time to go think about wadeva u say. but nvm now. guess i'm just too exhausted everynight to think properly. and maybe i shouldn't even think about it. but is it possible? i doubt so. i realli do cherish...

storm brewing yet again...

2005-05-12T22:08:00.000+08:00

back here again. finally its thursday, which means the weekends are drawing closer again! can't wait for it to come. did bio test today. hahaz. horribly atrocious? wonder if i can pass it.. totally blanked out. oh well. played a prank of sioks today.. totally freaked her out. haaz. so fnni. *sorri sioks. but it was still just simply funni. oh yah. and my PW grp is formed! so happy with it. Ronald, Hwee Hou, Zhu Han, Nessa and Me..... wad an awesome group! hahaz.

went out with a few of them today. went harbour front after school. go eat. lolx. time of bonding? hhaz. then ever since i've been here slacking. or in fact stoning? maybe not. many thoughts are running through my mind. it realli makes me wonder. this is killing me. i just feel like breaking down and cry. even though the pile of work seems ever increasing. i can't seem to even find interest in it. this bio prac has been infront of me since 4hrs ago? and its still here untouched. maybe half touched. just as i wanted to start on council campaign, it hit me. it realli hit me. *yet another night that i should just take my flu medicine to sleep. just seem to lost interest in everything. totally everything. it totally extinguish the flare in me for council. not that i don't want council, just lost the passion to go for it. this is realli weighing me down. deep down...

just as i picked myself up. i fell again. this time really deep. it hurts. it bleeds. so wanna stay in this deep hole and drown myself in my own tears. is it that i realli don't care? u always tell me this and that. end of the day? i have no clue at all. u wouldn't understand me... no body will... coz i don't even know myself.. that's wad i realised. guess i'm just pure brianless. all is nothing but about me decieving myself. never ever meant to "play with you". guess i'm just pure insensitive. i'm stupid.. i'm dumb... i'm foolish... i'm brainless.. i'm just a good for nothing... just let me be invisible and i'll be good at it... that's all i ask to be coz nothing appeals to me anymore. its just me. i'm screwed. will someone just tell me it's me?

i feel stupid...that's wad

2005-05-10T21:36:00.000+08:00

ok i feel like a total idiot today... no idea why i did it. seriously i don't know. for the fun of it? for the sake of doing it? or realli i wanted something to happen? oh well. all i know that things didn't quite turn out that well. or rather no where near well? i don't know. just want to sae that i'm sorri if i ever did hurt u in anyway. can things be back like wad it was before? i shall not pin too high hopes on that. i'm just like a deflated ballon. hahaz... -.-"

anyway council campaign sorta sux. make things so compulsory. force us to cheer tmr. hiaz... not that i'm not willing.. its like i've been short of time lately. and bio test is on thursday. yet to do a new PI. argh. screwed life. and i even bothered to do those stupid things i did. can someone just whack me up to realli wake me up? suddenly life just lost its colours to me? council seems meaningless now. hope i'll be able to change soon. still want to get into council. only this thing just weighed me down. that's all.

i'm realli very sorri.. will we be back to wad we were before i ever did this dumb thing? i dint mean to hurt u in any way if u were ever hurt... just wishing u all the best... still friends right? hahaz...

rainy rainy dae...

2005-05-08T14:48:00.000+08:00

rain rain rain. that's how it has been since the moment i woke up. or rather i dint want to wake up. was so cool and nice just could continue to sleep. Zzzz. oh well had to wake up to go church. hahz. think today is one of the first time we having praise and worship with only keyboard and guitar during main service? new experience but nice. hahahz.

oh well today is mother's day. hahaz. wad did i do? hmm. hug my mum? lolx. today's message was on mother's day and the purpose God has for each one in the family. focused more on the mums though. then it toks about how God can love each and single of us so much more than wad our parents can ever give. how to focus on God as a family and stuff. quite nice. hahaz. then after that slack as usual and came home. hahaz.

*i know you are down... i so just want to tell you that no matter how u are... i just want to share it with you? just to be with you at the hard periods and the bad times... and also share the happy moments with you... *no idea why i'm feeling this way...

"...Who have been upheld by Me from birth,
Who have been carried from the womb;
Even to your old age, I am He,
And even to gray hairs, I will carry you!
I have made, and i will bear;
Even I will carry, and will deliver you."

Isaiah 46:3-4

wooo... cool dae..

2005-05-07T21:47:00.000+08:00

well finally its saturday and the time for me to sleep late. woke up at like 10am after a well deserved and enjoyed ngiht of sleep. hahahz. i could have slept longer if not for my dad waking me up to go Funan for him. oh well. had to.

went funan in search of his long awaited iPod photo. just dragged me there to help make up his mind whether or not to buy. but all i ever go is "up to you" since he's the one using it. well guess i think he is feeling rich. $618 for sucha gadget. oh well. 30GB iPod photo was wad he finally came to buy. well that means i get to keep his old MP3 player. jsut a 256mb player, good enough for me. =X

then went to church in the afternoon for youth. once again i went early and be one of the guitarist for praise and worship. argh. just found out i think the tertiary group is leading p&w for the next coporate meeting. means that's me? hahaz. oh well. today was eye-opening coz it was on End Times. its like woah! totally awesome and stuff. oh i'm glad steph came! straight from her training in school. she brought elizabeth too? some classmate of hers. guess she's qutie a nice gal too. all able to qualify for the wheelchair club(WCC). in other words lame club. hahaz coz all of us are too lame to walk.

oh and steph came out with this reason why i'm the only dodo left existant in this world. coz the rest of them were feezed to death. that's why they appeard in Ice Age last sunday night. hahaz. apparently they frooze coz i'm too lame and my jokes are simply too cold. brrr... anyway tmr is sunday. yay! church time! hahaz. but means also study and tutorial time. dont' want to think beyond that basically. anyway anybody knows how to wrap a necklace up nicely? coz i can't. please tell me!!

last dae of the week

2005-05-06T17:08:00.000+08:00

alright this is my first ever post after all the hard work i've put in in designing or rather editing this skin to make it look wad it is now. hahaz. sheer hard work. thanks esther for telling me how to get a skin in the first place. hahaz.

oh well today is friday, like finally! this means the weekends are here! Yay! only want to think about the next 2 days, nth beyond that. oh yah! mother's dae this sunday, anyway sorta celebrated in advance together with my grandparents last night liao. hmm.. this weekend is going to be interesting i hope...

today is a crap day. chapel was on da vinci code. andhow wrong is it. nearly fell asleep. then thought it was librety after that. proved otherwise. some stupid presentation realli made me wanna sleep, but couldn't. i was the first in row. arGh! =x

chem lec sux. so does chinese tut. nvm. and finally it was the much awaited for chem test. ok it totally sux. its like totally different from the test esther had. so yeah. sorri ur help dint quite get into help. had to resort to my pure intelligence. hahaz. then came home to slack. other classes get to go OCS (officer cadet school @ safti) i don't, coz of my CT. nvm about that. oh well let's hope i'll have a great weekend ahead. God bless all.